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I wanted to kick him in the face I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanted to D':

You could have said it was part of your show (the face kicking).

congrats! Your gonna be rolling in the dough now, literally!

MSI is the shit

You're neat.

aww honey thats awful
well if you ever feel like moving from MO to OK you have an open bed here

I would cheer you on and say a stalker is flattering, but now that I have one myself it's just not as funny anymore...y'know?

paraphrasing what JKrout said (in some sweeter words):
'the idea is to remain in a state of constant departure while always arriving. saves on introductions and good-byes'
(from waking life)

thoughts linger... remember to put yourself first, follow your impulse decisions, you'll find yourself content, not angry.

I felt pretty much exactly the same way after splitting with my ex. It was like my life had no real context without her. 4 years for me too, although I've now been apart from her for 7 months.
Haven't spoken on the phone, exchanged maybe 4 text messages and one e-mail. Had one chance meeting for 3 minutes in a shop, I left shaking, she burst into tears. Horrible, but it's been the best way. Complete break away. I really felt like I was doing something bad for ages, I mean, she was my best friend, my lover, my confidant, then, one conversation later, all gone. It wasn't even a harsh split, her choice though.
But, onto the more positive side. 7 months down the line, I've regained 'my' life, doing everything for myself. I eat what I want to eat, I drink what I want to drink, I go where I want to go. Be selfish for a bit. For more than a bit. If you want to do it, just do it. You've got to do things for you and no one else.
I think you're being too harsh on yourself. Not being funny, but you're still young and you've had 4 years with someone. I turned 29 last year and 4 years is the longest I've been with anyone. If anyone's got to worry about being capable of something wonderful, I'm in a much shakier position than you
Anyway, saw you on JKrout's friends list, read your blog, and had to post, hope you don't mind me sharing my views.
Stay well,
Dan

I must say, reading your blog just made my day. Haha. You's a silly gal. =P It's good that your feet don't stink anymore though, having smelly feet sucks...well, if it was the kind where you can smell them without getting close and sniffing. O.o SO! I am getting a car tomorrow! 97 Nissan Maxima. Not new or anything, but it will be to me. It's nice lookin and hopefully *crosses fingers* it won't pull a POS move like my Jetta did. =( How was your day lovely?

That's a great story I can't wait for the sequel

True.........but screw it.............I'll get rest when I'm dead......

Better now...