Tuesday Mar 02, 2004

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Hi Guys,

Just wanted to put in one last journal entry to bid my farewell as my account is due to expire on the 6th of March.

To all those I've met and talked to, it's been good chatting and I wish you well in the future.

Stay cool smile

CS.
sakita:
awwww
i will miss you.
take care!
pureblu12225:
luck to you smile even though we never had a chance to journel trade

Tuesday Jan 20, 2004

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Sorry for being so absent recently and not getting round to journals, my head is firmly lodged up my arse at the moment with work and stuff. I should have time reflect this weekend tongue

Take care kids biggrin
sakita:
I think people accept absence better than we think
i havent made the rounds either for a really long time
im changing that today.
is it absence or absense?

Wednesday Jan 14, 2004

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Well, I finally made it to the dentist and for all my paranoia it turns out I just need a bit of a polish & clean - how relieved and happy am I! biggrin That said, it cost me a bloddy fortune and I'm so skint every penny hurts, but hiho.. gotta be done I suppose.

Work is still slow so after updating my CV yesterday...
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dollfac3:
Erm career wise I have my own business, but it is just starting out so need extra cash matey!!!!!! frown
cranialstrain:
But whats the business firey? If you need web stuff just shout, be happy to help! smile

Sunday Jan 11, 2004

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Why is it that everything I get interested in and want to learn about cost so much money? argghh mad

Work is very slow at the moment and money very tight, I don't think I've ever been this short of money since I was 17.. sad but very true! More worryingly it's getting very close to our wedding in May and all the 1000's that go...
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dollfac3:
I need to go to the dentist too but am too scared.... justifiably due to the huge amount of pain when I shattered both sides of my jaw thusly some teeth too!!! tongue
sakita:
im sorry about the money problems
but i know how you feel
i mean i used to get 2000 bucks a week...which isnt bad for the midwest of america, and i was living at home taking care of the grandmother, so i had all the money i wanted...then i decided to move to another country to be with a love...
and HAVE NO MONEY.

dentists are mean and evil people and i too need to go.

Friday Jan 09, 2004

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It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong

Where is the love? frown
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dollfac3:
........ love is all around or something........ x
cranialstrain:
I was on a bit of a downer.. plus as I've been getting insomnia and SG and my other Internet haunts were dead quiet I was feeling a little lonely frown

altogether - big sigh...

Thursday Jan 08, 2004

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I'm sure Whiskey is my devil, after hitting the bottle a bit last night I woke up at 4am with the hugest headache and feeling very worse for wear - not a good idea when you already have the beginnings of a cold puke I don't know what it is with Whiskey, but once I start I can't stop - especially if it's Jack D's love I...
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dollfac3:
I have not put any pics on yet....
I think there is always the worry that someone like. I dunno... ya mum might see it.
......but if you get a negative reaction is that person not being narrow minded?? If you did you should make them look at the site to realise what it tis about????
If someone judges you by piccys you put on a site then their life must be very very dull. that's my oppinion!! xxxxxxx tongue
dclxvi:
1. Yes I have posted pictures as you know - plenty of nudity

2. I have been concerned that someone might find them - but not overly concerned

3. No non-SG person has ever even mentioned my journal or pictures - the people that are on the site are so positive - I've never had a single negative reaction.

Monday Jan 05, 2004

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New Year, new challenges, new questions and new realisations.

I've started to try and be a bit more honest with myself when it comes down to my wants, desires and actions. I'm coming to the hard realisation that I've spent most my life cooped up in my protective shell, 'playing it safe' and being afraid of exploring both the world and ultimately my inner self....
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tigerlily:
1. you already read my journal
2. YES! SG has been an all around school in self acceptance and expression.
3. hmmm....

your journal was very raw, thank you. i think if you accept how you are, when you show it to the world, no one can argue with that. it's only when you express with apology that it allows an attack. go for it. you know you have the support group here.
dollfac3:
1) Keep meaning to get on a plane again ( very scared) and also get new tat started ( at least one part is in action!!)
2) Erm think it just suits who I am already ??? But is a nice place to come and be me???
3) Been offered an audition for a job that I always wanted to try but I am not a 6ft goddess........... we will see.......

Thursday Jan 01, 2004

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Woohay! Happy New Year! I do certainly hope 2004 is going to be a better year; although I know things could always have been worse, it would be nice to think things are going to improve whatever

It has to be said that a cluster of mini-crisis has beset the last few days of 2003, from heart attacks to radiator leaks I feel absolutely drained but...
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lucabrasi:
I'm going to a conference outside Verona at a place called Lago Di Gardia for a week or so and then hopefully spending another week meandering around Northern Italy, should be awesome! I've never been to Europe.
cranialstrain:
I've added a picture of my new office setup since the new radiator was fitted and new desk put in (if anyone is curious) smile

Tuesday Dec 30, 2003

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Ok - I feel completely defeated. I drove round all yesterday tracking down a same-sized radiator and after finally getting one the plumber told me he can't do the work until next week. Right! (I thought) I'll do it myself... but no, I just can't get the bloddy thing off and am dreading making the situation worse. I know it's only a radiator but I...
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jillopiantubes:
log cabin... need to go to canada for that! live in the middle of nowhere. thats my dream sometimes!
sakita:
hmm if my radiator was leaking id be in buttloads of trouble.
cuz i wouldnt know what to do and who knows how
long it would take the landlord to fix it.

as for oklahoma. its nice but like almost 100% humidity in the summer, and it can get very fricking hot.
not that i could say anything about france though.

and another down side to oklahoma...its illegal to get tattoos there... or at least it was.
so you would have to drive up to kansas..(complete craphole) or texas (see ks. description!)
or out you know to arkansas...which is pretty in the backwoods area, or west to .............holy cow i dunno utah????
hehee

have fun!

Sunday Dec 28, 2003

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Christmas is usually a time for reckoning and taking stock, and having spent the last 2 months wallowing in my own self pity and feeling sorry for myself, spending time with my gfs family and in particular her 81 year-old nan made me remember what enjoying life was all about.

One ingredient never lacking at Christmas is perspective and this came in the worst form...
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sakita:
thats awesome that she is up and at them after a mild heart attack and totally amazing that she hasnt been to a doctor in 30 years!!!

i wonder what kind of cheese she used. i think i know what you are talking about. it was so weird when i first moved here, i thought everything was weird tasting but since i havent been home for 4 years almost, i have the feeling once i go home everything there will taste weird.

what part of sweden did you visit?

well take care and i hope your new years eve is safe and happy.

cranialstrain:
sakita - I can't remember the cheese, but it was fantastic, almost like yellow edam, but it was the cucumber - it was so fresh and tasteful, I just wish english food was as tasty smile

She lived in Stockholm so I spent most of my time there, although we did venture out to her parents in Upsala a couple of times (forgive any spelling mistakes) and spent a lot of time in their country house canoeing and things - wonderful memories love

She tried to teach me Swedish, but to this day I only ever mastered "thank you", "your welcome" and "hello" - hehe whatever

Wednesday Dec 24, 2003

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There I was waking up yesterday morning ready and eager (well maybe a little eager) to get into the Christmas spirit - if only I knew what was to come.

Within 10 minutes of waking up I began to feel very woozy and dizzy, I then proceeded to be very ill, then get the shakes, then nearly pass out, quickly followed by spuing my guts...
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Sunday Dec 21, 2003

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I'd quite like to say I'm just on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster at the moment, but unfortunately whatever I'm on just seems to go down.

Can't help feeling really alone at the moment, with the current surge of work Christmas parties going on and me not going to any I suppose I'm feeling kinda jealous and a little left out. In many ways...
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jillopiantubes:
Its nice that you work for yourself, but I can understand how it can get lonely at times. Exp the holidays. What do you do? Build a snowman tommorow and take a picture of it!
cranialstrain:
It was a cool idea Jill, but the snow never came frown I was all ready and set to go out and build my snowman this morning and take a photo, but it wasn't to be - not today anyway :-)

As for what I do, I'm a programmer/analyst, bit like Olivia/S5 - doing internet sites and hosting. I hope one day that one of my sites becomes as popular as SG, this place rocks! wink
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