so i am lazy and didn't feel like re-typing this in a different flashy manner so i copied it strizzate off the ol myspace blog o mine this is what's up ninjas!
So what have i been up to? Maybe a few of you were wondering...so i'm gonna talk about myself for a bit.
One week ago today, i went to the doctor because a second pap smear came back abnormal..so in turn they had to perform a procedure called a Colposcopy. They take a big microscope and take a look at your cervix and use a vinegar solution on a giant swab to see if any of the cells on the cervix turn white...if they find white spots they then have to do a biopsy. The doctor found 2 white, sort of inflamed-looking areas on my cervix so she had to use what, medically looked like a glorified hole-punch and took two little chunks of my cervix from the abnormal looking spots and did a good amount of scraping on the outer cells to send those into the lab as well, i could go into further detail but i think you can already imagine just about how painful this procedure is.
I have no word as of yet on how my poor lil women bits are doing but the horrible bleeding from the wounds has finally stopped...sorry i had to make the stomachs turn a bit. I can't say i'm not the least bit worried because hysterectomys seem to be a commonly forced thing in my family due to abnormalitys in that area. But Heidi says if it is cancer and i have to do kemo...which is a highly unlikely thing...she would shave her head for me...and then i think to myself even as farfetched as the idea of me having cancer, cause i'm courtney and i can't have cancer, i think about how fucking WONDERFUL and AMAZING and CARING my friends really are and i love them more than words could EVER express. Because i know they will truly always be there for me when i need them.
And now onto a brighter, happier note....My job is shit. It's taken something that at one time, just last week, used to be sooo easy and something i was totally used to and turned it into a big friggin' circus of confusion, mayhem, headaches, backaches, irritability, and... i don't know what else but think of something REALLY lame and that would be how shitty my job has become....but i will perservere because i'm courtney and i can do this! haha i'm one of the best workers on our kitchen staff and my boss often likes to remind me and others of that fact...which makes me feel warm...but i know part of why she does that is so i won't abandon them and find a new and better job.
What did they do at your work that makes it so horrible? One might ask...and i will tell you a little now. I had the PERFECT routine and knew my job so well down to the friggin' T...or whatever that saying is. And now they have taken my wonderful world of orderliness and turned it into a sideshow freak with 3 eyes...but no, really? i used to serve out of a kitchen where all the most food-ly things are stored and readily available to all the old folks at the wonderful lil nursing home i work at, NWCC. NOW they have me and the cook serve out of a dining room with a portable steamtable unit and i have make sure 3 dining rooms are set up with table cloths, place settings, vase o' flowers, water glasses, bread plates, condiments, salt and peppa, bread baskets and that is only what goes on each table in each dining room for the residents who decide to eat in there. I also cart down to the "social" dining room the drink cart with milks, juices, and thickened liquids, for those who can't swallow regular liquids w/out choking. A dessert cart, and what my boss calls the "Mart Cart." This "Mart Cart" holds equipment and such for both me and the cook... things like covers for plates of food, soup bowls, coffee and cups and all the other things we NEED when serving out and if we forget something for some needy resident who ain't havin' the patience with us starting this new system of serve-out, i get reminded by several people not to screw up the next day...and today, was our 3rd day experimenting with this new super-neat system. AND I PERSONALLY THINK IT'S INEFFICIENT AND SUCKY!
Ok i'm done talking about my stoopid job. I have, as of a couple weekends ago, now visited my father 2 times since not talking to or seeing him for 10 years. Quite a major life decision one might say. And this is how it happened...A couple months ago, my "stepmom" who i had never met before, applied at my place of employment and i "allowed" (gave my boss the OK) to hire her. She did ask me of course! Anyways, weird situation to come upon me. It took about a month or so before i had decided after hearing about my little brother being 5 and me having never met him, decided to go visit my dad, uncle, grandma and little brother, Tyler.. on Christmas Day. I hadn't seen this side of my family for 10 years! It was weird and good and i get along with my stepmother very well and we work together so it's kinda fun and she brings me pictures of my brother and he really likes hanging out with me and he read to me the last time i saw him...he's smart and funny.
Well, i think i've updated my life enough online for one day i'll be sure and come back again sometime and tell you what happens to me after i get the results of the biopsy and all that. Have a good weekend ALL of you!
Love you all very much, take care of yourselves.
P.S. worked again today and got absolutly no break whatsoever...no lunch for courtney...she can just starve i guess! fuckers!
So what have i been up to? Maybe a few of you were wondering...so i'm gonna talk about myself for a bit.
One week ago today, i went to the doctor because a second pap smear came back abnormal..so in turn they had to perform a procedure called a Colposcopy. They take a big microscope and take a look at your cervix and use a vinegar solution on a giant swab to see if any of the cells on the cervix turn white...if they find white spots they then have to do a biopsy. The doctor found 2 white, sort of inflamed-looking areas on my cervix so she had to use what, medically looked like a glorified hole-punch and took two little chunks of my cervix from the abnormal looking spots and did a good amount of scraping on the outer cells to send those into the lab as well, i could go into further detail but i think you can already imagine just about how painful this procedure is.
I have no word as of yet on how my poor lil women bits are doing but the horrible bleeding from the wounds has finally stopped...sorry i had to make the stomachs turn a bit. I can't say i'm not the least bit worried because hysterectomys seem to be a commonly forced thing in my family due to abnormalitys in that area. But Heidi says if it is cancer and i have to do kemo...which is a highly unlikely thing...she would shave her head for me...and then i think to myself even as farfetched as the idea of me having cancer, cause i'm courtney and i can't have cancer, i think about how fucking WONDERFUL and AMAZING and CARING my friends really are and i love them more than words could EVER express. Because i know they will truly always be there for me when i need them.
And now onto a brighter, happier note....My job is shit. It's taken something that at one time, just last week, used to be sooo easy and something i was totally used to and turned it into a big friggin' circus of confusion, mayhem, headaches, backaches, irritability, and... i don't know what else but think of something REALLY lame and that would be how shitty my job has become....but i will perservere because i'm courtney and i can do this! haha i'm one of the best workers on our kitchen staff and my boss often likes to remind me and others of that fact...which makes me feel warm...but i know part of why she does that is so i won't abandon them and find a new and better job.
What did they do at your work that makes it so horrible? One might ask...and i will tell you a little now. I had the PERFECT routine and knew my job so well down to the friggin' T...or whatever that saying is. And now they have taken my wonderful world of orderliness and turned it into a sideshow freak with 3 eyes...but no, really? i used to serve out of a kitchen where all the most food-ly things are stored and readily available to all the old folks at the wonderful lil nursing home i work at, NWCC. NOW they have me and the cook serve out of a dining room with a portable steamtable unit and i have make sure 3 dining rooms are set up with table cloths, place settings, vase o' flowers, water glasses, bread plates, condiments, salt and peppa, bread baskets and that is only what goes on each table in each dining room for the residents who decide to eat in there. I also cart down to the "social" dining room the drink cart with milks, juices, and thickened liquids, for those who can't swallow regular liquids w/out choking. A dessert cart, and what my boss calls the "Mart Cart." This "Mart Cart" holds equipment and such for both me and the cook... things like covers for plates of food, soup bowls, coffee and cups and all the other things we NEED when serving out and if we forget something for some needy resident who ain't havin' the patience with us starting this new system of serve-out, i get reminded by several people not to screw up the next day...and today, was our 3rd day experimenting with this new super-neat system. AND I PERSONALLY THINK IT'S INEFFICIENT AND SUCKY!
Ok i'm done talking about my stoopid job. I have, as of a couple weekends ago, now visited my father 2 times since not talking to or seeing him for 10 years. Quite a major life decision one might say. And this is how it happened...A couple months ago, my "stepmom" who i had never met before, applied at my place of employment and i "allowed" (gave my boss the OK) to hire her. She did ask me of course! Anyways, weird situation to come upon me. It took about a month or so before i had decided after hearing about my little brother being 5 and me having never met him, decided to go visit my dad, uncle, grandma and little brother, Tyler.. on Christmas Day. I hadn't seen this side of my family for 10 years! It was weird and good and i get along with my stepmother very well and we work together so it's kinda fun and she brings me pictures of my brother and he really likes hanging out with me and he read to me the last time i saw him...he's smart and funny.
Well, i think i've updated my life enough online for one day i'll be sure and come back again sometime and tell you what happens to me after i get the results of the biopsy and all that. Have a good weekend ALL of you!
Love you all very much, take care of yourselves.
P.S. worked again today and got absolutly no break whatsoever...no lunch for courtney...she can just starve i guess! fuckers!
Take care sweetheart...