So 2 people got kicked out of the program today...which scared the crap out of me since I was borderline from being kicked out (3 abscenses)sp?...... but lo and behold...I MADE IT! Well, at least to the next level. So needless to say, I've been having an ongoing panic attack since 9am. I just took some tylenol pm to put me to bed. I'm nervous as fuck about starting clinicals tomorrow...... and not knowing answers to some heartwrenching questions is really not helping. I supposed time will heal all wounds (aka: my tattoo....how symbolic and gothic..yes?) ...in the meantime I'm going to need ...some fucking tranquilizers to calm the fuck down. My emotions are all over the goddamed fucking place... I've been crying everyday since I died...and its tearing me apart. Even as I'm writing this, I'm welling up. It's hard to die inside when you still have to function in the real world and be on your game. The upside to all this, is that I will never have to go through this pain again.
cyberiouse:
I knew you would make it babe. I never was worried. I'm really happy for you. I will say again I'm sorry for what i did to you and I've put you through. Thank you for accepting me back i know i was a fuck up and i fucked up i will never do this or hurt you like this ever again. i love you babe :-*