Went to Exit last night...I had liquid courage to get dommed by Maya, Cleo and Bee. It was fabulous. It felt so good on my back and neck because of my chronic problems. Maya is so sweet and I got to lick her boots.
I think I'm gonna stop trying to be a pro domme. I just don't have it in me. Guess it wasn't meant to be. I'm just gonna go with what I have now, go with my instincts and if that isn't good enough, oh well. I just don't have the presense and I've been accused of "not really being dominant" from a number of people. So fuck it. I have no clue what I"m doing and once again, I'm not weird enough for the freaks and too weird for the vanilla people. SOO! I'm stuck in the middle. Story of my life.
I think I'm gonna stop trying to be a pro domme. I just don't have it in me. Guess it wasn't meant to be. I'm just gonna go with what I have now, go with my instincts and if that isn't good enough, oh well. I just don't have the presense and I've been accused of "not really being dominant" from a number of people. So fuck it. I have no clue what I"m doing and once again, I'm not weird enough for the freaks and too weird for the vanilla people. SOO! I'm stuck in the middle. Story of my life.
snottlebocket:
They werent' accusations really, you said so yourself that you found it quite hard to do. Maybe you shouldn't take it so serious, just because you aren't quite up to the task of playing pro domme doesn't mean you can't have some dominant fun in a more relaxed way at home. And maybe we when you get pretty good at that you can go back and try your hand at being a pro again.