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You Ought To Have A Case Of Bloody Laryngitis..LiBBy



I dunno how to explain this feeling...but I just recently realized so much shit...
I know why I want to scream now...why I feel like I am breaking inside...why I cant enjoy
being around myself...and the list could go on and on...
Before I had to leave Portland, there were many things I needed and should've said to people and
I wasn't able to...It's like the expression of love and care and understanding that I needed and still need to say was blocked away and trapt inside of me...like a lil ticking bomb. It's like I died when I left Portland, and I wasn't able to say goodbye or I love you or even hello to some person I was too shy to talk to...I haven't had closure...of anything within the past 2 years it seems and it is literally eating me alive...I dunno if I am making sense or anything but in my head it's finally all come together and I am seeing the 'BIG' picture...I am realizing why I am so weak this time around...why my emotions are beyond expression...it's a wicked pattern...I serve my heart and emotions on a silver platter to people I love, last december I got my heart back mangled and abused by someone I thought would never do that...after that I locked my heart and all my emotions up...I let not a single person in...turned hard and careless...not giving a fuck about anything...so much that I was wreckless one night and changed my fate into a nightmare once again...leaving and not realizing for months to follow that there were and are soooo many people who've had the greatest positive impacts on my life...and I never was able to tell them..and this makes me want to scream and release and it's helped me become that girl I used to be....the one that is so full of love and not hatred and just me...why I ask why...did it take sooo fuckin long to realize what I have been doing to myself and to others whom I care dearly for....maybe now I'll be able to have closure and maybe I now can show people the Libby...I have never been able to show but a few...

Life is definitely a funny riddle and I am actually thankful for the shit I go through everyday...if I didn't I ask myself...What would I be?

Lookin like all haggered n shite...


Exactly...right?


C'mon man, whattchu gotcha head in ya ass...Mama - that ass look proper
Take ya panties off and twist it round the air like a helicopter...we got da funk!




errmm a wee bit faded in this pic...pillzville folks..




Make you pop, lock, do the ro-bot..




We keep it funky, everyday
That's it.. sorry it had to end this way No more of these for you.. squeeze... hahaha


ps...I love you all...and I cant wait to be able to sit down with you and tell you my adventures and shite when I get mah butt back to the town I love...

ohhhhh Go Meet the Aut Bot.... TankyTank
and believe you me...you will love her like I do...