Ok, down I slide into my financial oblivion. I just closed my Wells Fargo account (I opened it in Las Vegas 15 years ago). When I opened it, the bank was called PriMerit Bank, which was bought out by First Interstate Bank and that was then swallowed by Wells Fargo which then (even though the name didn't change) taken over by Norwest Bank. I hadn't used the account in over 2 years, but it still had money in it and I need money right now. I left my other account that has practically nothing in it alone that was opened in 1997... and of course I still have my primary account which is empty until Friday...
Just thought I'd share...
Just thought I'd share...
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Actually the case was that I had decided that I had had enough of the lifestyle when my heatlh started being affected by my drinking and drugging and when I saw people around me dropping like flies to the same things I was doing. I got sick of it all and just walked away from it and them.
If I had still been on drugs and booze when she and I met then she most likely would have hated me and we never would have been.
I guess when you think about it that way it sort of makes a good arguement for fate or destiny...or maybe just pure, blind, dumb luck.
-Josh
Well, yeah, she is to some extent playing games with me. I think I know the purpose though and I can live with that.
I think I have laid it on the line with her and that is part of the problem. Not the fact that I have, but that we still want different things, but I also have hope that we can reach some kind of compromise.
I think a common misconception that people have had regarding my questions is that people haven't realized that, at least in regard to Jen and also regarding Law school girl, I am the one asking people to settle. I am the one who can only give so much. Although the effect may be that my need for Jen to settle will result in me settling for less as well.
A problem of course with asking people to settle and with telling people you can only give so much, is that sometimes they don't believe you. Jen has told me many times that there was no one I was more dishonest with than myself. She may be right. The fact remains, however, that I cant be more than friends. With her or with anyone else. Jen never accpeted that, although, I never really knew until our friendship began to erode. I believe that is why she is being cautious now. I think she wants to avoid developing the same depth of feeling that we once had.
The situation with law school girl is similar. It is clear to me that she thinks I may not be as firm in my resolve to not be more than friends as I think I am. She is wrong, at least as far as it pertains to her. This is something she makes clear more through actions than words. It may lead to me not being able to be friends with her at all. I would like to avoid that because, frankly I enjoy her company and she is willing to make more time for me than most people are lately.
I can be shy. Especially in certain situations. I am not always comfortable in public places or around large groups of people. I think the person who is different online is actually me. The person online is closer to the real me than the person you have met in person. Part of that has to do with location. I am not totally comfortable there. Because of that I tend to be more reserved. In fact I wear a mask there as I do most places. The mask I wear there, however, is one of the most concealing. I do think we have some things in common and that there is a basis for friendship, but like other people we know, I can be hard to get to know. This is likely to be compounded by where we see each other. It is just not a place where I tend to be comfortable around other people. That doesnt mean it cant/wont happen. I think it has already started to, but, it may take time.
Sorry to hear you are broke. I am in a very similar situation. I am not doing much outside work and it is starting to have a serious effect on my standard of living.
[Edited on Jul 03, 2004 7:15AM]