codycat

This fucking sucks..... I'm basically confined to laying in my bed, or standing in my kitchen. I've got no one to talk to and nothing to do.. not only am I sick, but my back is broken, so yeah literally can't do shit.. if I'm lucky I'll get 5 texts from my girlfriend a day. I haven't gotten any visitors, can't keep any food down cause the constant nausea from the painkillers I'm on that don't even phase the intense pain I'm in..... I really really really wish I could go climb a mountain, but that's not happening for about 6 more months....I'm down to 110lbs including the brace I'm wearing, and depressed as fuck with literally Nothing to do except eat more drugs and stare at my ceiling.... But hey life could be worse, I could be dead!.... Sarcasm if you didn't pick up on that... Now We just wait on the thousands and thousands of dollars worth of hospital bills to roll in, cause you know, major spinal surgery is super cheap when you have no insurance... Also sarcasm... But what the fuck ever I'll find some sort of happiness in this fucking hell I've created, and I don't wanna hear any "stay positive " bullshit, let me smash 4 of your vertebrae and take all your money and leave you immobilized and all alone and let's see how fucking positive you feel!!!! Fuck it time to eat my drugs and pass the fuck out...