chryssi

Am I glad that Valentines Day is over! That has to be the suckiest holiday ever. I hate the ads that make you feel like a piece of crap if you do not have someone throwing diamonds and candy and flowers and whatever else they think you should have. My hubby and I have never really celebrated to much. He ususally gets me the standard chocolate and maybe a bouquet of flowers, but most of the time we are so broke that it is not much. Get real, we just had Christmas!

Things around here are OK. Mostly just having financial difficulties. I am so tired of not knowing how we are going to make it through to the next payday. We have not been in this kind of bind since our first daughter was born. That was 13 years ago. I am afraid I may have to find a real job that pays soemthing more than what I am making now. That probably means going back into retail, and retail management at that to make any kind of money. Not something I am looking forward to. It is not that I dislike working, but with 3 kids, trying to make daycare arrrangements is a pain in the ass. Then when they are sick, you have to find someone to watch them. And I don't have that many people arounf that can do that. At least not without a lot of guilt. I am starting to second guess buying this house. Maybe we should have stayed in the one we had before. And just fixed it up. It was a lot cheaper. but then we would just be sitting ducks for the next storm that came along.

I don't know, sometimes I wonder why we do it. It seems the more we try to become secure the less we are. And it is so much harder with kids, because there is so much they can not live without.