You are right, I did want that attention from my uncle. He was the only one giving me anything at the time. So sure I was going to take it good or bad. My parents, for their own reasons were never able to give me the right kind of love. If that makes sense. They loved me, just not in the way I needed. My...
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I was really pressed for time this morning so I didn't get to post everything I had to say.
I wanted to say something about the idea of having different I's. It was very interesting to me because I seem to have many. I am different in every situation with every person I know. How do you know which one is the "right" one. I...
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I wanted to say something about the idea of having different I's. It was very interesting to me because I seem to have many. I am different in every situation with every person I know. How do you know which one is the "right" one. I...
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silveronthetree:
Hello darling.
I`m glad you decided to talk on here. You know you can mail me any time ok.
I`m glad you decided to talk on here. You know you can mail me any time ok.
I`m sending you a big cuddle.
The new job sucks! I definetly am not the type to sit and answer the phone all day. I am used to things a bit more hectic and crazy. But it will help the financial situation so .... and it is only temporary just until April. Funny thing about this job I have a thing about calling people I do not know. It is some...
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hood:
well I guess it's one way to beat your phobia, but I know what you mean about calling people I don't much like it, I don't even call my friends that often and when I do its normally only for a couple of seconds lol 
y:
Heh. I'm Godawful on the phone, even with family and old friends.
The tinker is amazing, isn't he? Intensely masculine. I think if I were a woman I'd be grovelling at his feet or hanging onto him like a limpet. I didn't take the picture; I'm not even sure when it was taken. He appears, bizarrely, to be wearing sneakers though, so it must be fairly recent.
Peace.
The tinker is amazing, isn't he? Intensely masculine. I think if I were a woman I'd be grovelling at his feet or hanging onto him like a limpet. I didn't take the picture; I'm not even sure when it was taken. He appears, bizarrely, to be wearing sneakers though, so it must be fairly recent.
Peace.
I am writing today because I am disgusted with the whole housewife ideal!!
Why is it that because I stay home and do not work that I am expected by everyone
to have a spotless home? Why should I be expected to run a flawless household?
I am not the maid type. I hate it when anyone EXPECTS me to do anything. After 17 years...
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Why is it that because I stay home and do not work that I am expected by everyone
to have a spotless home? Why should I be expected to run a flawless household?
I am not the maid type. I hate it when anyone EXPECTS me to do anything. After 17 years...
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hood:
Aww that's so cute but its a shame that the school wont let her, I always thought that if schools and stuff allowed the show of individuality and creativity at an early age then kids today would grow up a little more rounded, but no they only seem to want to stamp authority on to them, I remember when I was in high school I got suspended for two week in my last year because I started to grow a goatee, I mean how fucked up is that
silveronthetree:
You love techno? really?
Wow you suprised me.
Dance on
Wow you suprised me.
Dance on
Unfortunetly I haven't started my new job yet. I went Monday for training and after that I expected I would start Tuesday. No, not until sometime next week. That is really frustrating becasue I hate to wait for anything. I told my hubby this morning I am about ready to change my mind. But he said no I couldn't do that. We do need the...
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silveronthetree:
Good. i`m glad that you can see how you`ve improved.
It warms my heart.
Best of luck next week then
It warms my heart.
Best of luck next week then
y:
I'm the same with my Grandad - I never bothered to go and see him when he was alive and yet there's probably no-one in my family I would've gotten on better with or learned more from.
Glad you're feeling ok despite everything.
Glad you're feeling ok despite everything.
Well after a year of staying home with the baby I am finally going back to work. I am getting out the retail nightmare though! I will be working as a receptionist in a tax office. Never done that before, but I am sure that I will do OK. Regardless of what my former employer says I do have a brain and I do know...
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silveronthetree:
Thank you mate.
How`s the job? You started yet?
How`s the job? You started yet?
I didn't realize that so much time had passed by since my last post. I have been so busy with things around here for Christmas! Thank you Silvery so much you are really a great friend!! I just noticed that you posted my pictures of Oak Alley on your page. I am honored to have them next to yours.
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silveronthetree:
good attitude mate, and you are welcome.
Thanks for your kind words and encouragement
Thanks for your kind words and encouragement
How old do you have to be to learn to leave the past alone and not keep reliving it?
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silveronthetree:
Its a habit that is hard to break, just like biting your nails or giving up smoking. Give it time.
chryssi:
Right now I am so sick of myself that I could leave. I don't deserve anything that I have. My husband my girls my life. If anyone knew how much pain I am in right now, they would be surprised. I am reallly good at hiding it. I thought that I could say no, but I can't. I want to continue this patternuntil it destroys me because that is what I feel I deserve. Unfortuntly it will destroy everyone that I love. So I don't know what to do. I just wish he would stop calling, because I cannot say no.
Seems like today is the day for me to feel every little painful thing possible. I want to be able to day that I am happy but that happiness never comes. The best that I can feel is content. I am tired of this emotional rollercoaster I am riding. I just don't know how much longer I can do it. I have started to hide...
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silveronthetree:
I`m right here mate.
Faking it to shut people up is easy, but harder in the long run.
I hope you find the courage to set them straight.
if you`re slipping back into hiding how you feel, you should at least confide in someone, maybe your hubby.
Love to you and send me a mesage if you need.
Love silvery
Faking it to shut people up is easy, but harder in the long run.
I hope you find the courage to set them straight.
if you`re slipping back into hiding how you feel, you should at least confide in someone, maybe your hubby.
Love to you and send me a mesage if you need.
Love silvery
chryssi:
Thank you for your thoughts. It helps to know I can say things and have someone to understand. I wish that I could talk to my hubby, but I have so many secrets that if I stared to ask for help I would end up alone. Certain people have slipped back into my life and are again causing me to be self-destructive. I cannot seem to fing the strength to fight it off, or sometimes I think that I look for it because of an underline feeling of feeling worthless.
I thought I had gotten through these feelings when I finally confronted and resolved my sexual abuse. I thought that was what was behind my actions. But I feel like I am still trying to recreate the abuse. I am so tired of this pity party I keep having for myself. It seems that I don't know how to be anything but depressed. I have lived this way for so long that it is easy and comfortable. Like a warm blanket to protect me from the cold. But the blanket is full of poison. This is crazy, but I'm going to post it anyway. It is how I feel right now, but I am sure it will fade as the goes on.
Thak you Silvery, and I am glad that I could help you feel better to. Anytime you need a lift let me know.
Chryssi
I thought I had gotten through these feelings when I finally confronted and resolved my sexual abuse. I thought that was what was behind my actions. But I feel like I am still trying to recreate the abuse. I am so tired of this pity party I keep having for myself. It seems that I don't know how to be anything but depressed. I have lived this way for so long that it is easy and comfortable. Like a warm blanket to protect me from the cold. But the blanket is full of poison. This is crazy, but I'm going to post it anyway. It is how I feel right now, but I am sure it will fade as the goes on.
Thak you Silvery, and I am glad that I could help you feel better to. Anytime you need a lift let me know.
Chryssi
Why am I so
blessed to have
a love so true
so passionate
so full
so painful?
Why am I so blessed
and not unloved?
Why did God
give me this person
that i am undeserving of?
Why am I so blessed??
blessed to have
a love so true
so passionate
so full
so painful?
Why am I so blessed
and not unloved?
Why did God
give me this person
that i am undeserving of?
Why am I so blessed??
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yeknomyknuf:
I saw your post in the New Orleans group looking for a photograpgher. Are you trying to become an SG?
chryssi:
I'm not sure yet, but I would like to have some photos taken to see how they would look.
I think it would be a very different and exciting thing to try. I am not at all
the kinda of person to do something like this, but when I seen the pics that are posted I am very drawn to the artistry and would like to try it. Thanks for the interest.
I think it would be a very different and exciting thing to try. I am not at all
the kinda of person to do something like this, but when I seen the pics that are posted I am very drawn to the artistry and would like to try it. Thanks for the interest.
I've been thinking a lot, as I am sure everyone has, today of the attack on the twin towers. They say that it was one of those events that you will remember exactly where you were when you first heard about it. That is so true. I was home getting ready to go to work, watching The Today show (love Katie). I actually saw the...
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silveronthetree:
Sad day for the world. Will we know the full results in our lifetime?
Glad you liked the pics
Glad you liked the pics
chryssi:
Will we know the full results of this tragedy in our life time? I don't think so. I think it will be another 50 years before we really understand if then. Only when they decide to let out the secrets will we know why it happened and why it wasn't prevented. We can only do our best to love each other without thinking of where we are from, what we look like, who we worship, and learn tolerence for things we do not understand. Ignorance breeds fear.
That Silvery and his willy - he's incorrigible!