I am back to an empty void I never thought I would be in again. Where I don't want anything apart of my life, and I don't want anyone else around. A place where I close everyone out, pretend to put on my smiley face, but I am not happy, not sad, just am.
I know this is a bad place to be, but I...
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grumpyoldbastard:
come and say hi when you can. i'll keep you on the friends list 
and i check it every day.
and i check it every day.
hunkabilly:
dont stop posting.. maybe some of us enjoy reading what you have to say. If you need someone to chat or talk to look me up. Take care. J
I've finally decided I'm going to have to suck it up, be brave, and see a doctor for my depression. It is getting progressively worse to the point I am really worried about it.
I remember the events of 12 years ago, and I don't want to risk repeating that, but I am back to an emotional state very simiular to how I felt then....
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I remember the events of 12 years ago, and I don't want to risk repeating that, but I am back to an emotional state very simiular to how I felt then....
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havok735:
As I said before just hit me up with an email and i will send you my cell number so you get anything you need to off your chest. I have had to deal with depression before and finally beat it. Anyways, it is a long story and I am sure some of it could help, but it is much easier to just tell you...
darqyn:
Strength and peace be with you. I have faith in the human spirit, and I don't have to know you well to sense your determination. I wish the best for you.
I am having another panic attack. It freaks me out so much when I have them. I never used to get them this bad or often.
I just start hyperventilating, and then I start to cry, and then I rock back and forth uncontrollably, and i just start doing things in a panic...I have a hard time concentrating, I am having a really hard time...
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I just start hyperventilating, and then I start to cry, and then I rock back and forth uncontrollably, and i just start doing things in a panic...I have a hard time concentrating, I am having a really hard time...
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darqyn:
It doesn't sound like fun at all. 
Do you have any messenger?
Do you have any messenger?
grumpyoldbastard:
i am late but if you still want that hug heres a big one HUG HUG HUG HUG AND A LITTLE 
I'm something wonderful, amazing, when I am shiney and new. But after awhile I lose my appeal, my value. Sorry, I just felt like it needed to rhyme.
Went to the psychic fair Sat. I had every intention of asking them about my social life, but when I got my chance it lost its importance to me so I didn't. What I did ask about...
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Went to the psychic fair Sat. I had every intention of asking them about my social life, but when I got my chance it lost its importance to me so I didn't. What I did ask about...
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havok735:
Well, that is an easy one!
You just need to make some decisions for your life and start working doing whatever you need to do to make it all happen!
As the last fortune cookie I got said:
Comfort zones are most often expanded through discomfort.
Since you are having a discomfortable year, why not at least work toward something? It will make you feel a lot better in the end and you will most likely end up being needed, loved, and important!
If that doesn't make you feel better than check out the set that just when up!
http://suicidegirls.com/girls/Posh/photos/Warcraft%20Dreams/
You just need to make some decisions for your life and start working doing whatever you need to do to make it all happen!
As the last fortune cookie I got said:
Comfort zones are most often expanded through discomfort.
Since you are having a discomfortable year, why not at least work toward something? It will make you feel a lot better in the end and you will most likely end up being needed, loved, and important!
If that doesn't make you feel better than check out the set that just when up!
http://suicidegirls.com/girls/Posh/photos/Warcraft%20Dreams/
1luneywolf:
if you constantly look for happyness in others then you will never find it.
Ok, either I have completely snapped or I am on to something. I feel like I am on the verge of this life altering epiphany that I just can't reach the whole thing through.
This is what happens when I am left alone by myself, though. I start to think things I shouldn't be thinking. I start to create and mold ideas that shouldn't be...
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This is what happens when I am left alone by myself, though. I start to think things I shouldn't be thinking. I start to create and mold ideas that shouldn't be...
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grumpyoldbastard:
sanity is a personal thing. weather you can say you are or not is you. there is a little insanity in all people. 
mine told me to join the marine corps on my 18th birthday in 1980
but i did have a good time after a little time on an island called paris in SC.
mine told me to join the marine corps on my 18th birthday in 1980
but i did have a good time after a little time on an island called paris in SC.
darqyn:
Sounds like a good time to me. Without the realities that we invent in our heads, the fantasies we lived would surely drive us mad. I'm living proof.
Heh...Yeah, I am just now getting home...Wow...what a night.
I kinda have a crush again, which is bad, because, well, it would be a bad mistake...and no more smokers...heh...I refuse it...not to mention I should stay away from pot heads..heh...
Anyway, so rp'ing was somewhat of a bust tonight. The married couple took their little one home, and the rest of us hung out. Me,...
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I kinda have a crush again, which is bad, because, well, it would be a bad mistake...and no more smokers...heh...I refuse it...not to mention I should stay away from pot heads..heh...
Anyway, so rp'ing was somewhat of a bust tonight. The married couple took their little one home, and the rest of us hung out. Me,...
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grumpyoldbastard:
please do not tease me like that
wynne:
Aw, dang!! Well, maybe next time.
What have I become?! Who am I anymore? I used to be so happy then, and somewhere I lost it. I lost who I enjoyed being.
This year to me has thrown me so hard and fast against a wall. My days are spent going from 1 extreme to another trying to make some kind of sense of it all. Why am I being put...
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This year to me has thrown me so hard and fast against a wall. My days are spent going from 1 extreme to another trying to make some kind of sense of it all. Why am I being put...
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grumpyoldbastard:
i would never do that. i want to see you succeed in all your wants.
sit down read the hobbit again.
i just re-read the number of the beast by heinlein and found areas i did not remeber reading previously.
sit down read the hobbit again.
i just re-read the number of the beast by heinlein and found areas i did not remeber reading previously.
wynne:
Are you going to go to the SG Burlesque show in Lawrence on the 24th? I want to meet you. :o
Obsession: n:
1. Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
2. A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.
That's me...My life is just 1 obsession after another. Eventually I get bored with it and move to something else. And no, this doesn't just include people. It includes everything.
That's all I am...1 obsession...
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1. Compulsive preoccupation with a fixed idea or an unwanted feeling or emotion, often accompanied by symptoms of anxiety.
2. A compulsive, often unreasonable idea or emotion.
That's me...My life is just 1 obsession after another. Eventually I get bored with it and move to something else. And no, this doesn't just include people. It includes everything.
That's all I am...1 obsession...
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hunkabilly:
Just thought I would say hi.I am also an obsessive compulsive person. And it is VERY expensive. And any kid of sex would be great... going through a dry spell right now. Ah well. Take care.
grumpyoldbastard:
my obsessions- there are to many to list. this thing would take up the whole page and then some. i can just say i hope yours do not overpower you and i need to find a trampoline. 
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[Edited on Oct 13, 2005 2:24PM]
So I have been depressed all day, and I think there is something wrong with me. The only way I could think to describe it was like this:
It almost feels like in an attempt to protect myself i delved myself into my own little world, to a point where I chose to live into it, but trying to come back into the real world,...
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It almost feels like in an attempt to protect myself i delved myself into my own little world, to a point where I chose to live into it, but trying to come back into the real world,...
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sbmick:
I just thought it was weird that someone that lives close to me has the same exact birthday as me.
Hope you get to feeling better.
Hope you get to feeling better.
grumpyoldbastard:
looked at new pics
i believe that means i liked them
i believe that means i liked them
Heh...I'm sorry I haven't been around much lately. I just haven't felt the desire to log onto sg in awhile.
I am kinda sick today...blah...Sinus issues due to the weather change. I'll be ok when my body gets adjusted, though. This is another part of why I wanted to move to Florida...the climate...
I finally got around to adding Trevor to my friends group. As...
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I am kinda sick today...blah...Sinus issues due to the weather change. I'll be ok when my body gets adjusted, though. This is another part of why I wanted to move to Florida...the climate...
I finally got around to adding Trevor to my friends group. As...
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grumpyoldbastard:
rock ahh by baby sleep tight