This Is
This is my coping mechanism
This is my drug of choice
This is for you to see
When you won't hear my voice
This is for my fuck ups
This is for regret
This is for the memories
Which I want to forget
This is self destruction
This is me falling apart
This is for the sadness
That I carry in my heart
This is wanting help
This says "look at me!"
This is losing control
This is clarity
This is your disappointment
This is my constant shame
This is the aftermath
Of living with your blame
This is self mutilation
This is a struggle everyday
This is my addiction
That just won't go away
This is my coping mechanism
This is my drug of choice
This is for you to see
When you won't hear my voice
This is for my fuck ups
This is for regret
This is for the memories
Which I want to forget
This is self destruction
This is me falling apart
This is for the sadness
That I carry in my heart
This is wanting help
This says "look at me!"
This is losing control
This is clarity
This is your disappointment
This is my constant shame
This is the aftermath
Of living with your blame
This is self mutilation
This is a struggle everyday
This is my addiction
That just won't go away