chichicat

So today turned out to be a lot more interesting than I originally thought it would be. I met up with Rob (Pandemonium) and Eric (datewitha38) for lunch today. Despite me accidentally mistaking Rob for Eric's new girlfriend (they strangely look the same from the back. Well they have the same hair from the back anyway), it was really nice hanging out and talking, just the three of us. I almost forgot there was tension between me and Eric. He was being so nice to me that I couldn't really be anything except nice back to him, and I didn't want to be not nice to him anyway. So then, just when things seemed comfy, Lauren showed up and asked to join us. I promptly bolted out of my seat and said I had to leave and started to feel nauseas. Eventually the feeling passed though, and now I think it might have actually been a good thing that I saw her that close, and saw her interact with Eric (an affectionate greeting took place between them). It's kind of like when you have a huge fear, so you constantly avoid it, but at some point you are forced to face it head on and it scares the shit out of you. But, once you face it, you usually feel so much better, like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. I feel something similar to that right now. It's almost as if seeing them together was my final confirmation that it's over. "Closure," etc. I'm feeling less resentful toward the both of them than I have been the past couple days, at any rate. And that's good. I'm a lover, not a fighter
So, then my dad ditched me, as I was supposed to be seeing him tonight to discuss some legal bullshit, etc. Soooooo I'm going to see Fantomas tonight in the city with Rob and my friends Lee and Dennis! Eeee! Tomorrow's class and then housing selection, followed by work. Yee-haw.
Oh, and one of my professors told me today that she really wants me to take an incomplete instead of dropping her class because I'm doing so well and there aren't many more things due for the class, and I have until October to make the work up. So, I'm not even that much of a slacker afterall, because I'm dropping 2 of 4 classes.
Things feel like they're starting to fall into place. I hope so, anyway.
I need more days like today