Its over between the two of us. Well there was never officially an "us" to begin with. Its been a crazy couple of months. She has been single for a few weeks now and has decided that she needs to focus on herself for now. I totally respect that but its not what I thought would happen. I told her that I still see us together down the road, but when I asked if I was wrong to think that she said she couldnt say. She says there is no guarantee that when she is ready that Ill be the one shes ready for. It really sucks. I know its over (for now, maybe) but its hard to move on. Im still attracted to her. We still spend a lot of time together. Its hard to go back once youve crossed a certain line.
Ha so as I write this Im starting to realize I think I need to take a huge step back on dating anyways until I figure things out. My head is kind of a mess. One thought I have been trying to kill is the thought of a certain ex that I havent been with in about 5 years. We did have a couple of flings since then. It seems that when Im spending time with someone new the thought of the ex is gone. But the moment Im on my own I start to think about her again. Now Ive tried telling myself that the thoughts I have of her are the ones from back then. That Im stuck in the past with her. Recently I did a good job of burying those thoughts. But they are starting to surface again. I knew I shouldnt have said this but the other day I was commenting on her FB and brought up the idea of her coming out to Vegas for a visit. Of course she replied by saying that her step dad is itching to make a trip this way and that theyll be in the area soon.
So right now I cant decide which unattainable woman I should chase . Yes, I do know the answer to this. I just that the aforementioned statement was funny.
Ha so as I write this Im starting to realize I think I need to take a huge step back on dating anyways until I figure things out. My head is kind of a mess. One thought I have been trying to kill is the thought of a certain ex that I havent been with in about 5 years. We did have a couple of flings since then. It seems that when Im spending time with someone new the thought of the ex is gone. But the moment Im on my own I start to think about her again. Now Ive tried telling myself that the thoughts I have of her are the ones from back then. That Im stuck in the past with her. Recently I did a good job of burying those thoughts. But they are starting to surface again. I knew I shouldnt have said this but the other day I was commenting on her FB and brought up the idea of her coming out to Vegas for a visit. Of course she replied by saying that her step dad is itching to make a trip this way and that theyll be in the area soon.
So right now I cant decide which unattainable woman I should chase . Yes, I do know the answer to this. I just that the aforementioned statement was funny.
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Like i said I think I'm holding on to old memories of the ex. She was an awesome girlfriend. That's what I need to remember. I know everyone likes to blame Vegas for the lousy dating but I can't, well not yet anyway. I haven't met enough people here. So my dating has been rather limited. Gone out with 3 different people in the 4 years I've been here. Know any ladies?