oh my fucking god.
you will NEVER guess what?
ok..deep breath people. are you sitting down?
Me..and my ex (Matt) are back together.
i know. I cant believe it either!
please dont go thinking i'm insane, or fickle. I'm neither.
So..details..
I went over last night, to hang out, watch a movie etc etc.. And it was cool. I met him from work, we went back to his, made a cup of tea, then had a hug. As he pulled away from the hug he looked at me and said "I want to give us another go"
And I cried, solidly, for 20 minutes. I was so shocked, I never EVER thought I'd hear those words.
It'd be easier for you to understand if you knew him. He doesn't make decisions lightly, and he's not messing me around. He's a very 'cut off your nose to spite your face' kinda person, and has always had that Henry Rollins mentality - that he's ok on his own, he doesn't need anyone..he's not co-dependent..
And he sat and told me how he thought he'd be ok, but after 2 1/2 months of not having me, he knows he can't be without me, that he loves me more than anything he's ever had before, I'm the best thing to ever happen to him. He wants me in his life forever
(whilst I absolutely do not think i'm that great, it's nice to hear)
especially from someone who doesnt say things like that - it means twice as much, y'know? Some people make grand, sweeping gestures of 'oh i'd simply die without you'. he doesn't.
He said there are so many places in the world he wants to see, but it'd all be pointless and not half as beautiful without me at his side.He said he needed me, always. I thought I was gonna explode with happiness when I heard that.
We're gonna stick to the plans we had before (before our split 2 months ago, we'd been together 16 months) and move to Holland around Christmas, New Year time.. either Amsterdam or Rotterdam or somewhere near there but not quite so touristy..
and yes, I exhausted all the ask-able questions: was it a knee-jerk reaction to seeing me with someone else? is it absolutely what he wants?..cuz i couldnt go thru that break-up again.. etc etc..
Telling new guy I couldn't see him anymore felt sucky. I don't like doing that kinda thing. But honesty is the best policy. I was lying to myself, trying to convince myself I was over him (matt) when I so clearly wasn't.
I love him with all my heart. and he loves me with all his.
sorry to rant about it. I'm so overwhelmed with sheer happiness. we're meant to be together. i fuckin knew it.
fin
you will NEVER guess what?
ok..deep breath people. are you sitting down?
Me..and my ex (Matt) are back together.
i know. I cant believe it either!
please dont go thinking i'm insane, or fickle. I'm neither.
So..details..
I went over last night, to hang out, watch a movie etc etc.. And it was cool. I met him from work, we went back to his, made a cup of tea, then had a hug. As he pulled away from the hug he looked at me and said "I want to give us another go"
And I cried, solidly, for 20 minutes. I was so shocked, I never EVER thought I'd hear those words.
It'd be easier for you to understand if you knew him. He doesn't make decisions lightly, and he's not messing me around. He's a very 'cut off your nose to spite your face' kinda person, and has always had that Henry Rollins mentality - that he's ok on his own, he doesn't need anyone..he's not co-dependent..
And he sat and told me how he thought he'd be ok, but after 2 1/2 months of not having me, he knows he can't be without me, that he loves me more than anything he's ever had before, I'm the best thing to ever happen to him. He wants me in his life forever
(whilst I absolutely do not think i'm that great, it's nice to hear)
especially from someone who doesnt say things like that - it means twice as much, y'know? Some people make grand, sweeping gestures of 'oh i'd simply die without you'. he doesn't.
He said there are so many places in the world he wants to see, but it'd all be pointless and not half as beautiful without me at his side.He said he needed me, always. I thought I was gonna explode with happiness when I heard that.
We're gonna stick to the plans we had before (before our split 2 months ago, we'd been together 16 months) and move to Holland around Christmas, New Year time.. either Amsterdam or Rotterdam or somewhere near there but not quite so touristy..
and yes, I exhausted all the ask-able questions: was it a knee-jerk reaction to seeing me with someone else? is it absolutely what he wants?..cuz i couldnt go thru that break-up again.. etc etc..
Telling new guy I couldn't see him anymore felt sucky. I don't like doing that kinda thing. But honesty is the best policy. I was lying to myself, trying to convince myself I was over him (matt) when I so clearly wasn't.
I love him with all my heart. and he loves me with all his.
sorry to rant about it. I'm so overwhelmed with sheer happiness. we're meant to be together. i fuckin knew it.
fin VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
I really hope it all works out well for you guys
I hope he's serious and doesn't fuck with you. And have fun with your travel plans.
Yes my arm fucking HURT!!!!!