So, I’ve been wanting to make a blog post for awhile but i wasn’t sure what i wanted to say or post but over the last couple days, ive been in a little bit of a grateful, sappy kinda mood and I want to share what Suicide Girls means to me, even in such a short period of time!
Last year, around this same time actually, I was leaving my job as a barista at starbucks and moving back home after having a really bad falling out with my best friend/ roommate. I have always really struggled in finding where I fit in in this world and the pandemic didn’t make it any easier at all. I really dedicated almost all my energy on my mental health during this time and started doing Onlyfans to be able to have the time and capacity in my life to really fixate on myself only. Little did I know, this would be the beginning of an upward spiral, something i RARELY experience.
Penny found me through reddit after a couple of months of using it to promote my onlyfans and just have a way to interact with anyone who took time out of their day to send me a kind message. I was in such disbelief considering as a teenager I used to see Suicide Girls all over my tumblr page and I just remember seeing these badass women and wanting to be one one day and I couldn’t believe this was actually my chance at doing so
After getting in contact with Penny, she gave me the chance to meet/ talk to other girls that modeled and/or worked for the company and the instant comfort and welcoming these women provided made me feel at home instantly. My whole life I struggled so much finding people I felt truly comfortable with and where I truly felt I could speak from my heart without feeling judgement or embarrassment. It’s like the sorority I was too afraid of in college but without paying to be friends with everyone. I’ve always wanted to surround myself with people who were empowering and empathetic and I feel like I finally found those people.
Suicide Girls is much more than just being a pretty badass. It’s a group of people that know what it’s like to be alone and to be ostracized, a group of people who just understand.
Thanks for existing, SG!
