Well I am now that age where we start to loose friends, my best friend passed almost 2 yrs ago now and now a close friend just lost her grandfather and another good friend has just lost yet another family member (and the 5th friend/family member in the last 4 months). With another friend fighting a close and long fight with cancer and the years of being a cook breaking my body down it is getting harder to not go to that dark place and harder everyday to get up and moving. I am not giving up or looking for a couple of words of motivation, I am just saying it as it is. Being in pain everyday is starting to wear thin and I do not want to become and stoner or a drunk to deal with it, I just want it to stop.
OK now on we go :)