its interesting how smells and sounds affect the mind. tonight at the bar i heard a song and it sent my brain through time to a point where i was happy for a minute. then i realized why i was happy about the thought then immediately saddened by the same thought.
i never figured or planned on reaching my 35th birthday but thats just over the horizon, and i have nothing to show for 35 years of life. i've never been married i don't have any children. and i'm scared shitless of the day when my parents may or may not pass away.
as with tradition i'm getting drunk for the week before and after my birthday cause that's just how half-breeds here roll...
is it my loneliness that fuels my misery, or my misery that fuels my loneliness?
i never figured or planned on reaching my 35th birthday but thats just over the horizon, and i have nothing to show for 35 years of life. i've never been married i don't have any children. and i'm scared shitless of the day when my parents may or may not pass away.
as with tradition i'm getting drunk for the week before and after my birthday cause that's just how half-breeds here roll...
is it my loneliness that fuels my misery, or my misery that fuels my loneliness?
robotsatemyhair:
It's always a little of both.