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charlana

Piscataway, NJ

Hopeful Since 2010

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Wednesday Aug 18, 2010

Aug 18, 2010
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DEATH BY THE SCALE..

The signs were there
The thinning hair
The curious stares
But no one cared

She skips her meals
Forgets how to feel
Overdoses on pills
The hunger kills

Counting calories
Losing body heat
Staying away from meat
Sticking to diet schemes

Breakdown, eat the most
Chocolate chips and cookie dough
Gaining weight, losing hope
Sticks her fingers down her throat

Lose a few, do it again
Throwing up, her new best friend
Scars in throats never mend
But she wants to lose another ten

Weak thighs and brittle nails
Skin and bones, but still she fails
Her disorder keeps her locked in jail
This is her story of death by the scale

(February 1, 2006)


Slowly slipping losing grip
Can't let anything touch my lips
Obessed with what i cannot change
Looking for something to rearrange

Swallowing little pieces of death
Trying so hard to catch my breath
My heart is beating so fast it hurts
And my state of mind is at its worst

I lay down to sleep once more
Running away from myself like before
But even my dreams keep me stuck
As this world of numbers eats me up

(May 25, 2010)


Funny (or maybe sad) how not much has changed.
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thora:
HUGS
(((Charlana))) kiss miao!!
Mar 4, 2011
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Gorgeous
Mar 16, 2011

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