chaostasis

love, until your hands bleed
i met you for the first time, disappointedly,
and after such anticipation_i thought my body
would just shake forever beneath you
and the unforgettable, sweet release of tension
quickly became addictive so i looked for you
in every touch, learning the difference
between this hand and that one
hoping some day you would come to be mine
or at least that i would control you
somewhere distantly; instead,
i was one day overwhelmed by you
in the sweet embrace of a lover
who made me gasp for breath,
made me bite my lower lip, and
made me whisper i love you.