chaostasis

i'm drunk in carbondale illinois with my boyfriend. it's pretty much awesome. i'm just really proud of myself because i can drink a six pack now and not get sick. lol. he bought me lager, which is nice of him. i told him i'd pay him back and then i got drunk and didn't. oops. anyway. i don't have much to say, but it's nice to have the time to relax. i keep having really panicky dreams about moving out of my parents house and into my own apartment. it's bizarre. i guess it sort of makes sense given how often i panic and all of that... but really... eegh. i'm just... afraid. that i'll run out of money or something. being a grown up sort of sucks. but i'll be so happy that i get to live with tim. and it'll be nice to not have to check in with my parents much anymore.