In Chicago visiting my sister. We get spicy food and see movies from time to time. After eating we buy tickets and walked past the concessions stand. My sister smells popcorn and asks me to buy some. Its a silly game we play. I tell her that she wont eat it and that she only likes the idea of movies and popcorn together. I buy it anyway.
The theater is small, nearly empty, and the film is foreign; something about a woman living in rural Argentina. The story is of the lovers she takes and the children they make. I think about how different types of men offer women different things. I think about myself. This is, I think, the intention of the film.
The movie starts and goes on for a while. A woman nearby stands to leave. She is large and unsure on her feet. Shimming past my sister she kicks over the full bag of popcorn sending kernels down the isle. Her attempt to leave discreetly produces the sound of crunching popcorn at every step. Spanish conversations in serious tones are interrupted.
It is ok to laugh because it couldnt be any other way.
self
The theater is small, nearly empty, and the film is foreign; something about a woman living in rural Argentina. The story is of the lovers she takes and the children they make. I think about how different types of men offer women different things. I think about myself. This is, I think, the intention of the film.
The movie starts and goes on for a while. A woman nearby stands to leave. She is large and unsure on her feet. Shimming past my sister she kicks over the full bag of popcorn sending kernels down the isle. Her attempt to leave discreetly produces the sound of crunching popcorn at every step. Spanish conversations in serious tones are interrupted.
It is ok to laugh because it couldnt be any other way.
self
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Wasting is a bad thing to do. Recycling is a good thing. Recycling requires energy, melting bottles, crushing, trucking, shredding, forming. Using energy is bad. I dont think about this sort of thing as much as I should. The world is set up so that we act in the most convenient ways. This means we do bad things without even thinking about it. It is a burden to think of better ways to live. It is a greater burden to do what is right. I am 24,and theres so much more, to be done. I want my net effect on this earth to be positive. I want to be righteous.
LIFE
I have a hard time blaming people for anything that they do. Though I believe in the power of choice and also believe that it is a distinct choice that we all must make to either make choices or to choose not to make choices. Its simple really. But, it gets me in trouble having this viewpoint. It allows me to dismiss the awful things people do as, the result of a poor childhood, or lack of education, ect. The only way I can understand this is by recognizing that I dont want to believe people choose to do bad things. I believe everyone wants to be good, to be liked, and to be happy. Even if this is true, it doesnt mean that in the persuit of good, happy, and likable things people arent misguided or guided by a value or belief that is wrong, mistaken, or just contradictory to my own set of values and beliefs. I think it is important to be careful with my own beliefs because they have misguided me in the past. Without confidence in my own philosophical foundation, I have little to judge other people by. I still manage to do it, but thats cool.
LUCK
In my life people have given me so much kindness and love that I have enormous faith in humanity. But I am lucky, though luck has nothing to do with it. It isnt luck. I have had a good and comfortable life among others who have had the same. The freedom and prosperity I was born into is nothing more that the stolen privilege to be the pimps of the world. That is to take without giving, to enslave.
WAR
The country I live in is at war. We have lost 2,000 some soldiers, boys, and we all know how irresponsible boys get with guns and fear and group mentalities and more fear and notions of pride in false ideas like freedom and nationalism. The Iraqis have lost over an estimated 100,000. Mind you these are not all people who signed up to fight, they are children and fathers and mother and all those wonderful names we use to call the people we love by. I find myself asking the terrifying question, what would I do? How could I possibly know? The reality is that Iraq is in the middle of a civil war and we started it.
WHY WE DO WHAT WE DO
In life I believe we do what we can. Knowing what we are capable of doing is the most empowering bit of knowledge we can obtain. Knowing what we have done is to know ourselves. I wish empowerment and self-awareness for everyone.
WHY
I studied political science in college. Thomas Paine wrote this same shit 270 years ago to a public that could read and didnt care about much more that feeding their families through the winter. They got off their asses. How on earth are we going to motivate the people of our time to do what is right?
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