Bitching, bitching,more bitching. Seems thats all I can do these days.
I am so frustrated with my situation I could fucking weep. Actually, thats not accurate, because I do.
I've been looking for work for about six months now, without success. I can't get a job in engineering near me because everyones looking for graduates, or years and years of experience. I cant get a job in bars near me, because all people are hiring for the weekend, and I cant get back to Bexleyheath from the centre of london at 3am on a saturday or sunday morning on the trains or buses. I cant get a job in administration or just fucking office work because apparently despite photocopying metric fucktons of notes and typing 3000 word technical reports on a regular basis for my degree I'm deemed as not being able to do that for money. I cant get any further with my studies because I still owe the university money, and without that money they have no intention of forwarding my results to another institution so I can skip on doing the first year again. I cant get far by myself, trying to do CAD work because ideally I need to get Solidworks certified, which means taking exams over the internet with a legitimate copy of Solidworks, which I dont have, so not only would I be out of 25 for the exam but likely blacklisted so I couldnt get it in the future, plus the wonderful option of financial penalties for using pirated software.
But at least I'm not the only one with trouble finding a job.
The largest thing, though, is the 3000 I owe Brookes. If I had that, I wouldnt be so worried. I'm terrified that if I dont get back into study this year, I would have to go in next september when I'm charged a minimum of 6000 a year, probably 7000, possibly 9000. My student loan would double, just for two years of study after I've been funded for four already. This really worries me because I'm in a real kind of limbo here (as above, no degree but no experience in a lot of things either) and compared to other people my age I am really behind the curve. I am so sorely frustrated over this because its not like 3000 in the grand scheme of things is a lot of money. Its not the cost of a new car, or a new kitchen, a downpayment on a house or something. If I could get one, I'd get a loan to pay it but obviously without a job it would be a stupid thing to do. Or, god help me, I'm thinking of asking my brother for a loan, or foist my situation on the generosity of the internet and effectively e-beg for money (since the ideal deadline for university applications has gone, but they are still open).
The OIA are unbelievable. I should have heard from them back in December, and I sent an email to them asking what the hell they are playing at, and I got a reply which basically said "Sorry we havent got back to you, but we've got lots of cases on at the moment and yours just has to wait." Astonishment doesnt cover it. They get paid to look at cases, mine is no different, and if you have to wait more than a fucking month after getting something to look at it, hire more people. I intend to have a very interesting (read:loud and shouty) phone call with them pretty soon since I will be really fucked if this whole situation waits too long and I go beyond the statute of limitations through no fault of my own but because the guys who are supposed to be helping me are sitting with their dicks in their hands instead of doing their jobs.
I do have some good news, however.
Dad has agreed -although I'm waiting for when I put it to the test- to loan me enough to move out and living costs for the first month of a new job somewhere which is great because it means I'm no longer limited to looking just in London and it means I get to move out of Mum's again.
And my brother seems to be in a mood to mend fences and has got me a six-month subscription to the London Hackspace as well as a set budget a month for materials so at least I can build things to put into peoples hands to prove that actually I'm not a complete idiots and I can actually do the stuff I set out to study.
Plus I should be able to pick up the certificate of the course I was doing from october-december. I'm not sure how to describe it other than very eye-opening. I know I come across as very arrogant and very assured of my abilities and intelligence, but I am actually quite saddened that what was a breeze for me was a struggle for the other guys that were studying it as well. I'm luckier than a lot of people, despite my situation.
Its late, I know, but one of the new years resolutions is to be more active on here, too. We'll see how it goes. Hope you folks are having a better new year than I presently am.
I am so frustrated with my situation I could fucking weep. Actually, thats not accurate, because I do.
I've been looking for work for about six months now, without success. I can't get a job in engineering near me because everyones looking for graduates, or years and years of experience. I cant get a job in bars near me, because all people are hiring for the weekend, and I cant get back to Bexleyheath from the centre of london at 3am on a saturday or sunday morning on the trains or buses. I cant get a job in administration or just fucking office work because apparently despite photocopying metric fucktons of notes and typing 3000 word technical reports on a regular basis for my degree I'm deemed as not being able to do that for money. I cant get any further with my studies because I still owe the university money, and without that money they have no intention of forwarding my results to another institution so I can skip on doing the first year again. I cant get far by myself, trying to do CAD work because ideally I need to get Solidworks certified, which means taking exams over the internet with a legitimate copy of Solidworks, which I dont have, so not only would I be out of 25 for the exam but likely blacklisted so I couldnt get it in the future, plus the wonderful option of financial penalties for using pirated software.
But at least I'm not the only one with trouble finding a job.
The largest thing, though, is the 3000 I owe Brookes. If I had that, I wouldnt be so worried. I'm terrified that if I dont get back into study this year, I would have to go in next september when I'm charged a minimum of 6000 a year, probably 7000, possibly 9000. My student loan would double, just for two years of study after I've been funded for four already. This really worries me because I'm in a real kind of limbo here (as above, no degree but no experience in a lot of things either) and compared to other people my age I am really behind the curve. I am so sorely frustrated over this because its not like 3000 in the grand scheme of things is a lot of money. Its not the cost of a new car, or a new kitchen, a downpayment on a house or something. If I could get one, I'd get a loan to pay it but obviously without a job it would be a stupid thing to do. Or, god help me, I'm thinking of asking my brother for a loan, or foist my situation on the generosity of the internet and effectively e-beg for money (since the ideal deadline for university applications has gone, but they are still open).
The OIA are unbelievable. I should have heard from them back in December, and I sent an email to them asking what the hell they are playing at, and I got a reply which basically said "Sorry we havent got back to you, but we've got lots of cases on at the moment and yours just has to wait." Astonishment doesnt cover it. They get paid to look at cases, mine is no different, and if you have to wait more than a fucking month after getting something to look at it, hire more people. I intend to have a very interesting (read:loud and shouty) phone call with them pretty soon since I will be really fucked if this whole situation waits too long and I go beyond the statute of limitations through no fault of my own but because the guys who are supposed to be helping me are sitting with their dicks in their hands instead of doing their jobs.
I do have some good news, however.
Dad has agreed -although I'm waiting for when I put it to the test- to loan me enough to move out and living costs for the first month of a new job somewhere which is great because it means I'm no longer limited to looking just in London and it means I get to move out of Mum's again.
And my brother seems to be in a mood to mend fences and has got me a six-month subscription to the London Hackspace as well as a set budget a month for materials so at least I can build things to put into peoples hands to prove that actually I'm not a complete idiots and I can actually do the stuff I set out to study.
Plus I should be able to pick up the certificate of the course I was doing from october-december. I'm not sure how to describe it other than very eye-opening. I know I come across as very arrogant and very assured of my abilities and intelligence, but I am actually quite saddened that what was a breeze for me was a struggle for the other guys that were studying it as well. I'm luckier than a lot of people, despite my situation.
Its late, I know, but one of the new years resolutions is to be more active on here, too. We'll see how it goes. Hope you folks are having a better new year than I presently am.
Modeling seems not to pay anymore, for me
Nice to read that you wanna be more active! SG is a wonderful place where making new online friends!
And, about your comment on my post: I know I should just tell him straight away that I like him, but I fear a "no"