Hey guys :3 Still not back at being as active as I'd like to...but life is pretty much against me these days...
As most of you know, I have two jobs : One as a search engine evaluator and one as a dog grooming assistant. I both love these jobs...
Since the beginning of the year, my boss at my search engine job told us there was going to be changes in the payment system. We used to be payed by paypal, but, as paypal takes a HUGE percentage out of our salary, they decided they were going to directly send our payments to our bank accounts, which was great news...I thought so...
But, nothing went like they planned...and I'm still pay less since the middle of march. They owe me an entire month worth of salary, almost two...and it's my main job...
My dog grooming job sure helps, but I don't make more than 150$ for two weeks of work...that's not going to keep me alive...
It is terrible because I also need to pay my taxes. Being self employed, I don't have taxes being taken off of my salary each month, and now I've got to pay them...but with what money? That I don't know.
Plus, my boss at my dog grooming job asked me to build a Shopify for her, which I blindly accepted to do because it looked easy and all. But who knew how much stress I was putting on my already tired shoulders...
Here I am, poor, in need to pay my taxes, with now three jobs. And also, there is something else, which I really don't want to talk about because I'll probably get judged and all...but let's just say my health is going down...that's how I'd put it...
Yes, I take anxiety meds and anti psychotics, but that doesn't turn me into some sort of emotionless robot, it just helps me function as a ''normal person''. But I think anyone in my situation would be exhausted, stressed and depressed...
I am really sorry for this depressing blog post, I'm usually all bubbly and stuff, but I'm just in a really bad phase of my life.
I just wish I could get my money, pay my taxes, end this website, go to the doctor and get my health fixed, go back to my normal life and work on my copslays...
On a positive note (which I have a hard time smiling about), I have been accepted to Vet tech school. I know I should be happy about it, but...ya know...anxiety...
Also, my next set is going live in less than 24 hours, hopefully your encouragements will cheer me up a little,
I love you all guys
-xxx-
Caraphernelia
