candide

Been sick for a while. Going to try quitting smoking until I'm feeling better. But knowing me it isn't going to last more than a day. Addiction sucks...but it feels oh so good. Maybe putting the money towards massive amounts of coffee will help. At least that shit won't kill me.

Having a fuck-buddy is apparently the way I get over girlfriends. That and being...
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Left Peoria around 2PM yesterday for the drive up to Flagstaff. Took Steven and I about three hours to get there. The scenery was absolutely beautiful. I couldn't believe how nice it was. I felt so free getting the fuck out of Peoria. Although I'll be going off to the Conservatory of Recording Arts & Sciences a year after I graduate (I'll need to...
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Woot! Big trip with my buddies up to Flagstaff this weekend. Three days and counting. Nothing but drunken/high debauchery.

Sara and I had a talk.

Started by going back over the reason why she broke up with me. I've been very depressed about a lot of things for a while. Sara wasn't doing much to help and I was bringing her down. That and my loud sense of humor made her feel uncomfortable.
Also, when she recognized just how close we had become she...
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Is love just chemical or is there something genuine behind it?

For the first time in months I've stayed home on a Saturday. Been sick for a while. Thought it was best to take a day off. And now I realize why I always went out on Saturday nights. I'm bored as fuck! Oh well, gives me time to catch up on my downloading and checking out the new SGs.

I swear I am never falling in love again until I'm thirty. In eighteen years I've been heartbroken by love three times. Sara had told me that she had fallen in love with me. In four months complications arose and she wanted to break it off. A month after the breakup she's wanting to date some other guy. Get over me that quickly? Maybe it's...
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Remind me never to get into a fight with a soda machine. Especially after I have a very intense talk with the ex-girlfriend. Those motherfuckers have a strong bite to them.

Sorry I haven't been online for a while. Been very, very busy. This weekend might be time to catch up on everything.

Hope everyone is doint well

Looks like tonight instead of going to RHPS Steven, his girlfriend Christina (who turned eighteen years old today) and myself will be heading down to The Sets on Mill & Southern. I really like Tempe. It'll be fun being down there again. Mix, mingle, meet a few girls to get my mind off of Sara.
I talked to her best friend, who told...
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Things lately:

I'm really missing the way Sara and I were when we were together. Every time I see her I want to grab hold and not let go. We've gotten so close and yet I can't help but hold some anger toward her for needing this breakup due to the emotional problems she's trying to deal with. I can't stay mad. I understand. Went...
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Skinny Puppy was by far the best show I have ever seen in my life! God, and I thought they sounded great on the albums. Hadn't been to Arizona in sixteen fucking years. Well worth the drive out to Tempe.
Hung around there for a while. Ate at Hooters. The restuarant where the girls wear tan leggings to offset their pail white arms Food wasn't...
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