calixtenemare

I hurt. I know what happened. What he did, what I did, what we did.

I know I did right by me, but why am I being selfish NOW? When I just destroyed one of the best things that ever happened to me.

I destroyed a man.

A beautiful man.

A wonderful man.

A man, I suppose... Who I was not meant to be with?...
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cyberiouse:

I will always love you honey and... yes i hurt ... you hurt me... as i said before ... i had given up on my future and felt like the darkness of not having a future had surrounded me... than... than you came, you came with a bright beautiful light and pushed the darkness away and took my hand... but then... just as i was getting fully out of all that darkness. When i felt i needed you the most. When i gave you the most.... You let go of my hand, and told me i could follow your light but you wouldn't help me through it and now while i am trying to follow your light that you are giving me... I feel like i am getting lost again and i can feel the darkness encompassing me.

Oct 30, 2008

mrsted_stryker:

You dont know me, and I dont know you. I just wanted to give you BOTH my support. John is my friend yes, but you are hurting as well. I posted a comment on his page and I really would like for you to read it. It is not bad in any way shape or form. It is the truth.
Take care. You hurt. He hurts. But some things are what they are.

Good luck!

Oct 30, 2008

PERFECT by The Cruxshadows

It's getting difficult
Each moment here alone
And it's getting dark outside
And stranger here without you
But I see a firefly
Glowing in the summer sky
Like bright confetti
Burning in the night

How do you do it?
You make me feel this way
How do you do it?
All these games we play
How do you do it?
How...
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bloodhigh:

they are so badass

Sep 26, 2008

decembermarie:

Cruxshadows are amazing. Have you ever seen them live? Breathtaking. They are so inspirational to me. You should get John to listen to em

lol I've told him before he needs to because they are simply awesome. I try to get him into some good bands...sometimes he catches on, sometimes he doesnt lol

Oct 7, 2008

It's been quite some time since I've written an actual poem of any merit.

Here it is, the first of what I hope to be many.

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And so those waves had carried me to a place where
Sight and mind had bled through an insanity unkempt.

Disowned, dispared, and discouraged, dusk had fallen and
Terror reigned supreme in a land that lay within this...
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I got my second tattoo!

Very soon I will be getting a second to that second... errrr.... A third that matches and goes with the new second... does this make sense?

Anyway...

I got a wolf print on my right, back, hip. (I can make no sense in the tattoo coma I'm in right now). I will get a matching one on the left very...
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cyberiouse:

It was priceless. I was going to take a picture but i was fearful of the wrath that would come down on me if i did

I'll just have to keep that as an awesome personal memory.

I'm so proud to have been there with you.

Can't wait for you to be there with me when i finally get my first.

Aug 23, 2008

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The Dear Lenore has finally returned from Germany (not that anyone here knew that...) and brought with her some amazing music.

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The week leading to the full moon has been nothing but unfamiliar territory and missed territories. It would appear that I have found something wonderful. Granted, appearances can be deceiving; naturally, I am skeptical and fearful.

The pain, you see, had filled me...
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