cainroth

Apparently I still have an account here.

Im still alive.
Im still alone.
I will never get the girl, but we will always be friends.
Im sick to death of friends. I want something more.
I stick my tongue out at the world.

Ive been reading Tatto Magazines lately. And who can pick one up these days without seeing an SG gracing either the cover or a good many of the pages inside. Way to go girls.

Yay!

So the Goth club is going well. Its good to be Goth in the state of NH right now.

I told Lauren I loved her for the first time yesterday....
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Oh hey, my account is still here. Look changes. Perdy.

Read some stuff interviews and stuff. Always interesting. DRE interviewed the author of Generation SLUT which I had just randomly found and read. Very coincidental.

I still get to spend no time with my girl. Her parents remain an oppressive totalitarian police state all there own. The really funny thing is that Lauren is one...
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Right, forgot about this site for a while. Pictures are not forthcoming, but perhaps in a bit. There have been ups and downs in the relationship.

She has tons of stuff going on and I sometimes feel that she doesnt have time for me... But then she reminds me that her uber controlling parents wont let her see me anyway... So free time really isnt...
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Yesterday was the bestest Valentines Day ever. She cooked me dinner, served by candle light. She gave me a rose. She made chocolate covered strawberries

And I actually got to spend a couple hours with her. Yay! Got pictures. Will upload at some point.

Ups and downs.

Well heres the thing. She is about 8 years younger than I. Im not usually the kind to date young, but we met a little more than a year ago (both of us had SO's at the time, hers being a freind of mine). We got closer in the last few months, just hung out and became good freinds. And we started...
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That was easily the best kiss of my life. It makes me puddle-y every time I think about it. \/happy sigh\/

So a good freind of mine and I have been getting close lately. We hung out two nights in a row, and talked today. There have been movies and lots of phone calls, and emails and good times at bookstores.

We're still in those preliminary relationship phases where were not really sure how to bring stuff up, and we're not really sure where things are...
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Bleh. I am impatient, sort of. I want to meet cool girls. Something that I am not so good at. Im really looking forward to the New England Darkside Walkers Ball. Maybe I can meet some cool people there. As I am attracted to 0.00X10-1000% of the population I will most likely come out of it with a few new friends. But Im hoping someone...
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Im not good at the whole meeting people/making friends thing. I dont know how to get better at it I have no idea how to go about finding people Im interested in. Id really like to not be single anymore, but I really dont know how to go about not being, um that way. Blah. \/shrug\/

Ive been whiny lately. Mostly because I keep posting...
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So I think that Im destined to be a retail weirdo for the rest of my life. And Im cool with that. I just hate the pay! The pay is sucky! I cant afford to live on 7.50 an hour.

Im just glad I didnt rack up huge piles of debt from colleges to figure that out. My associates degree was nice and cheap (in...
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Bored.