No apologies. I'm not apologizing. Should I?
I swear 90% of women aren't worth the hassle. Like this dizzy girl last night. She calls me up at like quarter of two a little tipsy asking if she could have her friend pick me up and drop me off at her place because she was feeling down and wanted some company, but mostly she didn't want to sleep alone.
Now, this girl is a little psycho, but in a mostly harmless way. Her big issue is she is very thin and does not have a feminine figure, in fact her figure is non-existent. She is very pretty, just a little androgynous. From a distance, if you couldn't see her face, you would assume she was a boy with chin length hair.
Personally I think she is beautiful inside and out, and have let her know so. Plus she always smells so good. We are more friends than anything. Now at this point I'm not sure if she is calling me because she wants a shoulder to cry on and a warm body to snuggle against while she sleeps, or if she wants me to play doctor and give her a stickadicktome.
Either way I'm game, though I was hoping it was the former. I was kind of digging just being friends and cuddle-buddies. Sex always seems to complicate things, and this was no different.
The drama was, she met this guy she thought was cute and was going to go back to his place for some hot lovin'. Well they were kissing outside of some bar on The Main Line, when a group of "frat boys" said something quite derogatory about them kissing. Apparently they thought it was two guys kissing. Well that was too much for the "cute guy" and he left her high and dry. She was of course devastated. That cut right to the heart of her insecurities.
We were sitting on her little loveseat as she was telling me this. She had her head on my shoulder and I was stroking her hair. Then she abruptly straddled my legs, wiped away her tears, snorted her runny nose ever so cutely, looked me in the eyes and asked, "Do you think I'm sexy?" I told her she was beautiful. She said, "That is not what I asked, do you think I'm sexy?" This time with "fuck me" written all over her face.
When I hesitated because I didn't know how to answer, tears welled up in her eyes again and it looked like she was going to burst. I panicked, I didn't know what to do so I just grabbed her and began kissing her as passionately as I could. Well to make a long story short, we fucked like monkeys for the next couple of hours then fell asleep in each others arms.
When I woke up, I found her crying hysterically in the bathroom. She was babbling something, going way too fast, speaking in half sentences. I caught part of it. She was upset because of something between a mercy fuck and being taken advantage of. I'm not really sure. However, she was adamant about one thing and that was she wanted me to leave right then. So I walked like a mile to the train, rode the R5 to the station closest to my house and walked another 2 miles home.
Now, I was a little salty about the sudden toss out and subsequent walks. But most of all, I'm confused. I didn't think I did anything wrong. In fact after how things went the night before, I was looking forward to waking up with her in my arms. I mean it was great, she was a fireball. I swear I saw stars.
Did I do wrong? How could I have done things different? I called her, but she didn't answer so I left a message. I don't know what to do or how to react. I probably just lost my friend and cuddle-buddy.
You can't win with women, you can only curb your losses.
I swear 90% of women aren't worth the hassle. Like this dizzy girl last night. She calls me up at like quarter of two a little tipsy asking if she could have her friend pick me up and drop me off at her place because she was feeling down and wanted some company, but mostly she didn't want to sleep alone.
Now, this girl is a little psycho, but in a mostly harmless way. Her big issue is she is very thin and does not have a feminine figure, in fact her figure is non-existent. She is very pretty, just a little androgynous. From a distance, if you couldn't see her face, you would assume she was a boy with chin length hair.
Personally I think she is beautiful inside and out, and have let her know so. Plus she always smells so good. We are more friends than anything. Now at this point I'm not sure if she is calling me because she wants a shoulder to cry on and a warm body to snuggle against while she sleeps, or if she wants me to play doctor and give her a stickadicktome.
Either way I'm game, though I was hoping it was the former. I was kind of digging just being friends and cuddle-buddies. Sex always seems to complicate things, and this was no different.
The drama was, she met this guy she thought was cute and was going to go back to his place for some hot lovin'. Well they were kissing outside of some bar on The Main Line, when a group of "frat boys" said something quite derogatory about them kissing. Apparently they thought it was two guys kissing. Well that was too much for the "cute guy" and he left her high and dry. She was of course devastated. That cut right to the heart of her insecurities.
We were sitting on her little loveseat as she was telling me this. She had her head on my shoulder and I was stroking her hair. Then she abruptly straddled my legs, wiped away her tears, snorted her runny nose ever so cutely, looked me in the eyes and asked, "Do you think I'm sexy?" I told her she was beautiful. She said, "That is not what I asked, do you think I'm sexy?" This time with "fuck me" written all over her face.
When I hesitated because I didn't know how to answer, tears welled up in her eyes again and it looked like she was going to burst. I panicked, I didn't know what to do so I just grabbed her and began kissing her as passionately as I could. Well to make a long story short, we fucked like monkeys for the next couple of hours then fell asleep in each others arms.
When I woke up, I found her crying hysterically in the bathroom. She was babbling something, going way too fast, speaking in half sentences. I caught part of it. She was upset because of something between a mercy fuck and being taken advantage of. I'm not really sure. However, she was adamant about one thing and that was she wanted me to leave right then. So I walked like a mile to the train, rode the R5 to the station closest to my house and walked another 2 miles home.
Now, I was a little salty about the sudden toss out and subsequent walks. But most of all, I'm confused. I didn't think I did anything wrong. In fact after how things went the night before, I was looking forward to waking up with her in my arms. I mean it was great, she was a fireball. I swear I saw stars.
Did I do wrong? How could I have done things different? I called her, but she didn't answer so I left a message. I don't know what to do or how to react. I probably just lost my friend and cuddle-buddy.
You can't win with women, you can only curb your losses.
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sick_sicilian:
well ty luv for the compliment... much appreciated, i just see myself as such a good catch but never SEEN, i get the looks but never get approached, i ve been told im intimdating but im such a sweetheart, i guess one day someone will luv me, why is ur day badd?
racer_x:
Dude, You are trying to apply the concept of rational thought to a woman........good luck with that. 