bohogirl

I must accept life unconditionally. Most people ask for happiness on condition. Happiness can only be felt if you don't set any condition.
Margaret Lee Runbeck


What conditions do you place on your happiness?


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I've just realized that I am going to be in trouble one day in the future...
Part of my 'recovery' is to minimize stress as much as possible, as I carry it in my neck and shoulders; I'm also supposed to pamper myself and treat my body, mind and spirit as if they were the most precious, fragile flower. (something about compensating for the pain and physical stress and blah blah blah, good for recovery, blah, blah, blah... who cares why, doctors are telling me to make life very pleasant for myself... who am I to argue with that?)

Bottom line - if it stresses me out, I am not allowed to do it; if it feels good, I am to do it as often as possible; if it makes me happy, even for just a few moments, same thing...

It all sounds great, and it's working more or less well (besides the fact that I am majorly behind on most of my 'must do/must take care of' errands)... But, I just had a majorly frightening realization: one day, I will have to go back to living a normal life, taking care of business and being a mature, responsible adult who doesn't live one instant gratification to another!

What the hell am I going to do when that day comes?


Oups, almost forgot: life has had little meaning since sixblueten left to go to Seattle today. I will be in mourning until he comes back.