blujazzmunki

I went to see her today and we stood awkwardly chatting in the kitchen as her mum tidied up around us. She looked cuter than in my minds eye, and that image is enough to make the weak to dig their own graves for they know her image will haunt all of them bar "the one's". So beautiful, so bewitching. I'm not sure about the awkwardness, I can read so much into it, so many reasons and they all lead down different paths.
So I'm waiting, and she is haunting. I'm loving and she is haunting. All I ask is some form of clue. I've been told so many things, that she was happy when she first found out that I liked her, over three years ago now, that she had never met a guy who cared for her so much. Then that she felt second best because I had a crush on her sister, which means nothing to me, yet I'm aware why she feels this way and that is not the case, I'd fall for her whoever she was, she is beautiful, sweet, kind and caring. So why do I have this undying worry that she's just to nice to tell me how she feels, or is she just testing my feelings for their strength.