Tuesday Mar 11, 2003

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Well I just started reading "Awaking the Buddah Within" again. Last few days I have been really genuinely happy and it sacres the shit out of me.

I mean I have been sort of depressed on and off for several years, but mostly not seriously depressed in any way but just blah all the time. I had thought I had come to terms with it, I wasnt suicidal or anything so I accepted my personality was not likethose "happy shiny people....holding hands"

( gotcha with another annoying song you will try to burn out of your mind he he he)

But really the last week or so I have started to realize what I have been missing. And it is scary, I have realized that JOY biggrin is such a great thing and that I shouldnt give up anymore of my life to joyless moments or pursuits than I absolutely have to.

Right now I am trying to sustain my joy for as long as I can hence the rereading of buddist type book, I also recognize that if things go back to the way they were, prolonged period of blahs, I will probably need to seek "chemical help" to rebalance my life and neurotransmitters, which I am loathe to do.

What does it mean to you to be enlightened?
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xxanastasiaxx:
I have been a practicing buddhist for years. When I am not practicing my world starts to fall apart. Keep at it, it's such a great feeling when all is right with the world. That inner peace..you can't beat it..

I agree with lovecat, I get attached very easily too, and have a hard time letting go but tend to do so a bit more easily when I am practicing, I have better clarity, i see thing from a diffirent prospective.



[Edited on Mar 12, 2003]
krista:
I used to get depressed...and I did let go of a bunch of crap that other people/society convinced me of. I'm not practicing anything even vaguely theological. Just my own little approach to life that I'm sure really only works for me.

Keep at it.

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