Oh Jesus. "Made love" to myself for 2 hours, then passed out and woke up 12 hours later. In the course of that 12 hours I apparently got several phone calls that I didn't wake up to answer. What the hell happened??? 
Woke up happy and again blaring Melanie C. Wrote a declaration of war to the world's femme lesbians in my head this morning....
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Woke up happy and again blaring Melanie C. Wrote a declaration of war to the world's femme lesbians in my head this morning....
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Ahh, the gay man music attack worked like a charm, it is so quiet around here now that you could hear a pin drop.
I wasn't supposed to drink for a while, but i'm drunk on wine and highly amorous, as is the case every time I drink the nectar o' the gods. Or is it the fermented froth of the devil? Oh God sooooo...
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I wasn't supposed to drink for a while, but i'm drunk on wine and highly amorous, as is the case every time I drink the nectar o' the gods. Or is it the fermented froth of the devil? Oh God sooooo...
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antisquid:
Vrrroooom. Vrrooooooom. Errrrrrrrrg errrrrrrg errrrrrrrrrg- Squeeeeeeeeeeeel-smash!
Weeee-ooooo weee-oooo.
Oops.
Weeee-ooooo weee-oooo.
Oops.
minsc_and_boo:
that was great 
YES! SUCCESS!!!
So these rappers moved in next to me a few days ago and every day I tell them at least three times to turn their shit down, and they don't.
So I went to Amoeba and bought a CD that has ALL of the songs they play at the gay man clubs here (and play on the dance station.) I woke up this...
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So these rappers moved in next to me a few days ago and every day I tell them at least three times to turn their shit down, and they don't.
So I went to Amoeba and bought a CD that has ALL of the songs they play at the gay man clubs here (and play on the dance station.) I woke up this...
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onefoolishline:
ohhhhhh bfemme stop lookin' at me like that, you're gonna turn me gay...
"you made me gay, girl"
"you made me gay, girl"
lighthammer:
I bow before your supreme coolness
Might I suggest some Aqua? Dont get much more obnoxious than that......
Oh, and just for the record, I happen to like Melanie C
By the way..it wonderful to see you laughing again. You lovely thing you
Might I suggest some Aqua? Dont get much more obnoxious than that......
Oh, and just for the record, I happen to like Melanie C
By the way..it wonderful to see you laughing again. You lovely thing you
My gay man friend came over...his latest boyfriend that he moved in with turned out to be a compulsive liar and into weird humiliation/torture sex that made my friend uncomfortable. He moved out of that guy's apartment and now that guy is threatening to sell all of his stuff and sue him if he doesn't move back in with him by tomorrow. We sighed and...
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morgan:
you got lots more balls than me, darlin'. But I think being told I've got 'em is the best compliment I've recieved on this site so far. *blush icon here*
kick ass out there!
kick ass out there!
mistersatan:
Of course it does- it needs the heat to survive.
Reduce yourself and all those around you to smoking ash... and then rise from the rubble like the phoenix I know you are. They may not understand, but I do, love- at least I think I do.
Now go out there and let the flames of your soul lick and peel at humanity's decay.
Reduce yourself and all those around you to smoking ash... and then rise from the rubble like the phoenix I know you are. They may not understand, but I do, love- at least I think I do.
Now go out there and let the flames of your soul lick and peel at humanity's decay.
Since when did the SG community become so cruel? I don't remember the last time in my entire life I contemplated suicide so heavily and all I get are a bunch of members telling me my writing sucks and that I SHOULD go away. Hmm, maybe that's why the site is called SUICIDEgirls.
Hey thanks. I haven't, you know, been insulted my whole life or...
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karry_ling:
stick in there evrything will be alright
r_dominique:
i really don't know what's up, so i'll refrain from breaking bones in any direction, but i'd like to let you know that i like your writing, especially in your journal, and that is why i added you as a friend, to more easily access your journal. and i would assume that the other 30-some-odd peeps that have you as a friend feel the same way. so relax... every author has detractors, and critics, but not many have fans before they even start out of the gate.
you do.
try to live... you brighten otherwise gloomy days for many people.
you do.
try to live... you brighten otherwise gloomy days for many people.
All I want is to not be Ugly.
Someday, I want someone to get really excited about me; I want their heart to beat fast when I come around and I want them to think i'm special. And to be happy with just me.
I can't help it that everything about me is ugly or scary and that I don't act sexy. I'm trying hard...
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Someday, I want someone to get really excited about me; I want their heart to beat fast when I come around and I want them to think i'm special. And to be happy with just me.
I can't help it that everything about me is ugly or scary and that I don't act sexy. I'm trying hard...
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welcome2thedawn:
that sucks that you feel that way. i think alot of people do and just don't say it. hey..at least your fantasy is coming true. i'm going now...
i'm going now...
welcome2thedawn:
i wasn't trying to be mean. i'm sorry. the last thing i want is to make someone who's alredy feeling crappy feal any worse. i feal so bad now. i know you don't know me, but i hope you believe me. i'm too much of a smart ass i guess...uh, sorry again.
Lately, I have gotten into the habit of climbing a certain hill that overlooks the entire city at 2 o'clock in the morning, lighting a cigarette, surveying it all and then going back home to go to bed.
I went up today and took a long look at it. A sno-globe of coke addicted models and other predictable people. The cars moved like crustaceans along...
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I went up today and took a long look at it. A sno-globe of coke addicted models and other predictable people. The cars moved like crustaceans along...
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demigauge:
*kisse you on the forehead*
you are a goddess of compasion..not a hissing demon
you are a goddess of compasion..not a hissing demon
fallen1carus:
that's beautiful.
and it makes me remember a similar place i once had... a field overlooking the whole city. and with lots of rasperries.
it seems like if people knew the kind of reflections you could have in a place like that, maybe they'd pay attention.
and it makes me remember a similar place i once had... a field overlooking the whole city. and with lots of rasperries.
it seems like if people knew the kind of reflections you could have in a place like that, maybe they'd pay attention.
Go! Go! Go!
Fuck a million other women. ADVERTISE IT! Like it's a goddamn bottle of SHASTA!
Dash my love upon the sidewalk like it's a newborn baby. Careful, don't step in the brains.
The birds are singing in Greek.
Do it.
Run me through.
Do it.
Do it.
Do it.
Fuck a million other women. ADVERTISE IT! Like it's a goddamn bottle of SHASTA!
Dash my love upon the sidewalk like it's a newborn baby. Careful, don't step in the brains.
The birds are singing in Greek.
Do it.
Run me through.
Do it.
Do it.
Do it.
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demigauge:
NO!
boynamedsue:
So it's like Trance writing (Yeats) or Spontaneous prose ( Kerouac)? It was an honest question. No need for a penis contest. We have all won numerous awards and are published. Some of us even have chapbooks. It makes no difference.
"Who will die? You said someone must die."
"The poet will die. The visionary."
-The Hours
I realized with glee today that I do not have to kill myself.
Just what lives inside.
And I can do that. With cold, cruel efficiency. I will drink and fall down many more flights of stairs and maybe even start going to the sex club like everybody else....
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"The poet will die. The visionary."
-The Hours
I realized with glee today that I do not have to kill myself.
Just what lives inside.
And I can do that. With cold, cruel efficiency. I will drink and fall down many more flights of stairs and maybe even start going to the sex club like everybody else....
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volkov:
anger, madness, loss... very sexy shit.
you're not ugly on this inside anymore than you are on the outside.
I can see why you might frighten someone. you're strong and passionate and you WANT a lot and you know you deserve to get it. maybe they don't feel up to it and look for a lamo's way out? I don't know.
le poete es mort
long habiter le pote
smells like it's all burning up inside.
burning like a aries gone mad.
you're not ugly on this inside anymore than you are on the outside.
I can see why you might frighten someone. you're strong and passionate and you WANT a lot and you know you deserve to get it. maybe they don't feel up to it and look for a lamo's way out? I don't know.
le poete es mort
long habiter le pote
smells like it's all burning up inside.
burning like a aries gone mad.
I wish I could love you romantically, but I just can't
I wish I could love you romantically, but I just can't
I wish I could love you romantically, but I just can't
I wish I could love you romantically, but I just can't
"I want to go home to mama."
"Stop crying. If you are a strong girl, you won't cry. You don't want...
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I wish I could love you romantically, but I just can't
I wish I could love you romantically, but I just can't
I wish I could love you romantically, but I just can't
"I want to go home to mama."
"Stop crying. If you are a strong girl, you won't cry. You don't want...
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antisquid:
You are poetry. I hope you stay.
catdad:
Please keep writing.
So I dealt with it all by getting so drunk I fell down a flight of stairs.
Excellent. I felt nothing. Maybe a dull pain in my right arm. I need to go to bed. I have work tomorrow, they're going to test me on how happy I can pretend to be, how well I can fake being sweet to people when I hate my...
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Excellent. I felt nothing. Maybe a dull pain in my right arm. I need to go to bed. I have work tomorrow, they're going to test me on how happy I can pretend to be, how well I can fake being sweet to people when I hate my...
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antisquid:
I won't treat you with kid-gloves, because you are fucking steel in the ribcage, but dude! Shake it out! We are all full of murder and smog, you just have to exhale some of it with all that firebreath or it infects your head.
Don't fake sweet. Go on a short trip somewhere new, odd, open, and jarring where you can exhale and do something large and random.
Don't fake sweet. Go on a short trip somewhere new, odd, open, and jarring where you can exhale and do something large and random.
antiprincess:
You meet the craziest damn people when you're out, don't you?
Everyone pushes me away.
You want me to go away?
I will FUCKING go away.
I hope I never fall in love again because it means absolutely nothing when I tell somebody that I love them, they punish me or throw away my words.
And you know me; I am a wordsmith and that word means a lot.
HA! Not one person in my life...
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You want me to go away?
I will FUCKING go away.
I hope I never fall in love again because it means absolutely nothing when I tell somebody that I love them, they punish me or throw away my words.
And you know me; I am a wordsmith and that word means a lot.
HA! Not one person in my life...
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morgan:
i don't want you to go away.
and someday someone will give you what you need. if they don't, i'll kick them in the proverbial nuts.
and someday someone will give you what you need. if they don't, i'll kick them in the proverbial nuts.
psmith:
I stopped falling in love, for reasons similar to the above, I don't even have crushes any more. I've become numb. Writers probably shouldn't go that route.
At least you're not 24.
At least you're not 24.
One day some woman is going to say to you. "Bionicfemme I can't live without you." and you're going to say "Yeah I know. Now get nake and bow down before me you silly wench!" and she will because she'll know she has a good thing. So don't worry. Things will work out.
[Edited on Jun 02, 2003]