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Sooo, How's everyone doing. And by everyone, I mean, YOU.

Looking for a new job in New York City is the most unenejoyable, tedious, and hopeless thing I could be doing. We're in between jobsite's right now, so there's no work, (or even anywhere TO work for that matter) so, while everyone else who works with me is gettin unemployment for the lay-off time, I...
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argonautgod:
You mean ME? I'm doing pretty cool. You're doing pretty cool. Shit, everyone's doing pretty cool, except Michael Jackson... Jesus what a fuck-up that guy is.

Thinking about letting my hair grow through that awkward stage is the single overriding reason why I'm not going to grow my hair out again. Thankfully there are no pictures from that litttle era.

Sorry man, I can't help you with that dress thing - for geographical, ethical and daft bigoted reasons biggrin

What kind of bands have you played in. What kind of music do you play?
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Oh brother. Another fun filled weekend ahead, I woke up this morning with thoughts of suicide and the need to piss. Dragged my ass into the clinic, and bounced outta there feeling like a new man. It's almost sickening how much I notice this stranglehold... you never think its gonna happen, and then it does. Your not as free as you think you have free'd...
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billybeer:
Hmm, I don't know, I've done a lot of shit, Now that I'm feeling better and can go back to work, we've been working on this apartment for the last few months, and before I got sick I was building this really rad closet, that was fun. It should still be there fo rme to finish up when I get back... These people are really rich, so we get to build some CRAZY looking shit, haha, it's been fun. But yeah, I think that the furniture I've made for myself is always going to be my favorite stuff, like my tables and dresser and computer desk and shit, cause it's mine, haha.
argonautgod:
There's always this f'n high I get whenever I put together some furniture (flatpacked crap, I'm a total woodworking failure) because I did it with my own hands. Which in most things in life is the best way to do things smile

Hope you're feeling way better now.
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Shits been real up in the air lately. Ive jsut been tryin to figure out what to do about the state that my life is in right now. This anxiety isnt helping anything either, so Im gonna try and see a psych to get some meds for when I have attacks, (which is pretty much daily). I'm working on a series of photoshopped photogra[hs that...
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argonautgod:
Sounds real intersting, look forward to seeing the pics.

Rock on!
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"I still think about you all the time"
"Keep trying'
"because i want to see you have a long and happy life"
"I love you man" ( an IM with Rob Rasch)

It's nice to hear from a friend you havent seen since you were basically falling off the edge of the earth and very close to death. I miss all the people that were...
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argonautgod:
Hey, man. Understand that history is history. The choices you've made -- they're done. Got to look forward. Always be looking forward. Dwelling on the past is an impediment (I spelled that right first time - yes! - sorry) to future progress.

Fuck problems, man. Fuck worrying about having them, just a massive waste of time. Deal with them with zero bullshit when you hit them and you'll realise, in perspective, how miniscule they really are.

And don't apologise for the heavy entries. This is your journal. You're not playing to an audience, you're sorting your own stuff out. Never apologise for that.

Take it easy, man. Hope you're doing better soon.
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Fuck I'm so fucking bored all the time. I feel like I completely missed the boat when it came with all the fucking interesting things to do in this lifetime. I used to have fun, I used to talk to people all the time and hang out all the time and go to shows and be active and intersting, and now all I do is...
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Ah, same old shit. Went to the doc today. Should be getting disability till the end of feb cause im sick and cant go back to work till then. That's a bummer cause i actually like my job, and I hate sitting around the house all day with nothinou fuckers better start being my friend's so I have people to hang out with. Taking Ambien...
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Life's been bringin me down lately. (but what else is new right?) Besides getting sick three weeks ago and still not getting better (they think I might have Tuberculosis now) I dont really hasve anyone around to keep me company. I feel like all my old friends dont have anything to do with me anymore, I cant go out anywhere (like to shows or meetings)...
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rxqueen:
heya smile
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This blackness thirves on weakness
Look on, ahead to the bleakness
A shadow hangs, looming
Overhead, only the darkness is soothing.
This grip I cannot escape
My life it's succeeded to take,
This grip I cannot shake
Death will be the escape.
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argonautgod:
Thanks for the bands man, I'm trying to 'acquire' (ho-ho) them as I type. Once I've got 'em I'll give you my opinions.

Check here if you ever need a laugh. The Roger Mellie cartoons are awesome.

Later man, be cool.
argonautgod:
Contravene is fecking cool. That's my Tonk Hawk music - if I'm playing Tony Hawk I've got that on in the b/g. I'm still getting Sea of Deprivation, although the Hell Hath No Fury is pretty good. I'll let you know when I've got it.

Stay frosty.
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Fucking Snow. Blah. I hate not being able to get to bed early enough during the week. I have to get up at 630 every day, an dI'm up till 230 every night. I should get some sleeping pills. Then Ill sleep for sure. Anyway. Watched "Capturing the Friedmans" tonite. A documetnary about an "alleged" sex offender and his "alleged sex offender son. Alleged becuse...
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argonautgod:
Snow rules. So it brings places to a halt, bollocks to that. It's scenic.

Is the Noam Chomsky book him being interviewed or him doing the interviews?

Enjoy the labour.