billybeer

Oh brother. Another fun filled weekend ahead, I woke up this morning with thoughts of suicide and the need to piss. Dragged my ass into the clinic, and bounced outta there feeling like a new man. It's almost sickening how much I notice this stranglehold... you never think its gonna happen, and then it does. Your not as free as you think you have free'd yourself. You realize, it's a diffrent freedom that you have searched for, and found, but just cant get a grip on it, it slips through your fingers... You make the changes you are sure will take you to it's gates, but you forgot to get the keys and your locked out, standing there in the rain waiting for someone else to come and open up the gates... But noone ever comes. Well, I know now where I left that key, and Im going back for it, and when i get back to this gate, Im gonna fucking BURN down everything that lies inside. What once was despair will be triumph and victory. Freedom from this endless sickness, aching bones, atrophied muscles... They can only break your neck so many times...