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billenium

Southampton, now Troy

Member Since 2004

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Saturday Aug 14, 2004

Aug 14, 2004
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crushing lonelyness

I miss my friends,
I miss feeling like I belong somewhere, and that I matter in some way,
I miss knowing what I'm going to do,
I miss feeling,
and wanting to feel,
I miss late nights,
I miss later mornings.

Sorry I'm depressed frown

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deerailed:
Dude. I know that feeling.

Waking in the morning. Having to peel myself out of a single matress without a boxspring. Getting ready hastily yet hesitantly. Driving the same route to the same office to spend the same ungodly amount of time doing... whatever. Returning home in the cold of the early morning/latest night. Returning home to my cubicle, after droning on in my office (which, coincidentally, is just a small box with pointless windows).

Losing relationships... friends drifting away... love, or any plausable substitute sinking into the depths of awkwardness, then fading faster then a tan. Never even getting a tan, as my life will perpetually be the same pointess drivel.

Locked in an office. Losing hope. Lost ambition.

It IS crushing, when you really sit back and look at it. The booze doesn't satisfy anymore. The notion of independance mocked by the emptiness. FUCK. I'm depressed too.
Aug 16, 2004
itzie:
Cheer up cowbit tongue
I know cheering up doesn't help
but...
Aug 20, 2004

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