bigchief117

Ok so heres the low down on whats going on...
Before I really begin this is a "heres whats going down", yes, but its also...for me, so I can step back and go "what the fuck am I doing?"

Im in love with a girl, far as I can tell..madly in love. She has red hair, and a pretty face, and a nice body (that...
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Its funny, I have these dreams all the time lately of what I wish my life was really like. Its almost as if I pray so hard, and wish so much my life was better that my sub conscious mind allows my self a false sense of relief by turning these fantasies I day dream about, into all I dream about. The biggest example is...
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Its getting less and less likely I get to keep her ::heart broken::

Wow I cant talk about this enough, why the hell does this have to happen, why can't I just be omnipotent and have complete control over my fucking life?.... I just want my rubber band back

False sense of...hope? Security? I don't really know how to word it, all I know is the girl im in love with is a thousand miles away, and she broke it off over Yahoo Messenger. I cried..and cried..and cried, not just because of what had happened, but for the last 4 years of my life, it all just kind of came out. The DUI, Iraq,...
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My heart hurts

So if you read my June Friday the 13th post you know I suck at life when it comes to females, far as I can tell its still completely true...except maybe for one? I met someone, she's incredible, she's gorgeous, she's highlarious and the high light of my day. The only problem is, she's not here right now. She is far far away, for a...
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So no shit there I was at a kegger with people I probably shouldn't be there with, and I ended up doing a bad bad thing, so bad that I want to do it again

4th of July weekend, it goes well I suppose, not the greatest weekend ever but hey, its 4 days off. Goin out tonight to see some local guys play acoustic, pretty excited actually, haven't been to anything like this in a loooong time. Wish Lory was here, but noooooo she's in the states enjoying her Birth Day! lol Hope your having a good time kid!!

So another craptastic weekend in Japan, I thought it was going to be different here, well I actually know whats wrong...I got a DUI before I left the states, that really fucked up my life. Yeah I shoulda known better and not drank and drove, but the Army didn't have to rip my career apart. I'm not where im supposed to be, I don't have...
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Wow girls piss me off, see this is why I use to get with thick girls at Bragg, at least they're greatfull. All the hot slim girls with cool ass personalities are stuck up, sure occasionally you'll find that one who's genuine and honest, but where the hell is she? At least (you know who you are) was good enough to tell me it wasn't...
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Hrmm, what to do what to do...girls are hard lol.