You know what? People were mean to me today, but I don't even care. I am having a teriffic day. My newest article got published in a local mag and they asked me to do 3 more for next month. Damn, I love getting paid to do something I'd otherwise do for free.
I had a great evening out last night doing research for my...
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healthyparanoid:
my birthday is on a sunday - guess where we're going on my birthday?
healthyparanoid:
stripperoekee??? hrm... that sounds like a crazy idea, i can't decide - i'll ponder
So, one of the actors in my show unintentionally insulted me last night and I can't seem to get over it. We were joking around about the fact that he is married to an Equity (professional) stage manager and that I must be brave for agreeing to work with him. I leaned over and jokingly whispered to him, "It's my first time." To which he...
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healthyparanoid:
Well - you saw my first stage show ever, so I guess I had some of the same issues you may be dealing with - you just have more responsibility.
Let me say this - if he said it in a kind way, then I suppose he was trying to be homely and make you comfortable - telling you, "ya I know it's your first time, but I'm here to help and I'll take all your cues and orders with a big smile."
However, these people are few and far between. So, if you want me to kick his ass - I'll gladly do so. If not - then you and I can get absolutely hammered after your final performance
my treat 
. I can also bring some rope...
And let me know if you need any help with thems papers - eye kan rite gude
Let me say this - if he said it in a kind way, then I suppose he was trying to be homely and make you comfortable - telling you, "ya I know it's your first time, but I'm here to help and I'll take all your cues and orders with a big smile."
However, these people are few and far between. So, if you want me to kick his ass - I'll gladly do so. If not - then you and I can get absolutely hammered after your final performance
my treat . I can also bring some rope...And let me know if you need any help with thems papers - eye kan rite gude
healthyparanoid:
i did 
A friend just sent me an email. Along with the subject line "I miss you, but..." it said,
"I am concerned about you. I am getting emails from you that say they were sent at 4:45 in the morning and text messages that say you sent them at midnight. Do you ever sleep?
Ok. I already know the answer to that question. No, you don't....
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"I am concerned about you. I am getting emails from you that say they were sent at 4:45 in the morning and text messages that say you sent them at midnight. Do you ever sleep?
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fairyjochen:
fresh lasagnas
healthyparanoid:
hopefully: aug 16th - in my own apartment
- in my own apartmentEveryone knows the effect that music can have on memory. You know how it is, you are going about your business and suddenly, there is the whisper of a song playing on some passing car stereo and you are brought back to your 21st birthday when they played NIN's "Closer" and your crush had you up against the mirror of a smokey dance club. Or...
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oxy:
songs are like waypoints on the map of memory.
hadjischlomo:
Dude, I know what you mean. Good to share this stuff, and better that you are attuned to these things than not.
I think of a New Yorker article I read within the past few months about Muzak, and how heavily engineered the emotional experience of music can be sometimes, that it can be a tool of manipulation. Sometimes this shit is pretty transparent, but we can all unwittingly become sheep in the marketplace.
So I think the more we understand our own emotions and how a particular piece of music has a really personal, subjective effect that is unique to our individual experience, the more the mosic becomes our own point of reference.
Better, of course, for music to be a point of departure for self-discovery than to let it be an endless sentimental tape loop. But it's also cool and trippy how immediate the association can be, that music can give us a full glimpse at ourselves at another time and place. It can help us separate the wheat from the chaff.
But there will probably always be some songs, many of them sappy, that will almost always make me bawl, like "Sunshine on my Shoulder," which makes me think of a sad movie I saw about a kid who's mom died of cancer, and watching it as a little kid gave me a huge fear of losing my mom, or the first real visceral notion of what death might be about.
There's also a 70s pop/countryish song, I think maybe even by Olivia Newton John, that goes "Please mister, please, don't play B-17; it was our song, it was his song, now it's oo-oo-ooo-ver." Breaks me up every time, first hitting me at a time of homesickness at summercamp when I was 8 years old, then later thinking of friends and loved ones who died.
Beyond the emotional and evocative potential of music, maybe there's also some pieces of profound truth that resonate. I think of how many songs give me goosebumps, and part of that has to be that the music somehow resonates with what and where I am at that moment.
I think of a New Yorker article I read within the past few months about Muzak, and how heavily engineered the emotional experience of music can be sometimes, that it can be a tool of manipulation. Sometimes this shit is pretty transparent, but we can all unwittingly become sheep in the marketplace.
So I think the more we understand our own emotions and how a particular piece of music has a really personal, subjective effect that is unique to our individual experience, the more the mosic becomes our own point of reference.
Better, of course, for music to be a point of departure for self-discovery than to let it be an endless sentimental tape loop. But it's also cool and trippy how immediate the association can be, that music can give us a full glimpse at ourselves at another time and place. It can help us separate the wheat from the chaff.
But there will probably always be some songs, many of them sappy, that will almost always make me bawl, like "Sunshine on my Shoulder," which makes me think of a sad movie I saw about a kid who's mom died of cancer, and watching it as a little kid gave me a huge fear of losing my mom, or the first real visceral notion of what death might be about.
There's also a 70s pop/countryish song, I think maybe even by Olivia Newton John, that goes "Please mister, please, don't play B-17; it was our song, it was his song, now it's oo-oo-ooo-ver." Breaks me up every time, first hitting me at a time of homesickness at summercamp when I was 8 years old, then later thinking of friends and loved ones who died.
Beyond the emotional and evocative potential of music, maybe there's also some pieces of profound truth that resonate. I think of how many songs give me goosebumps, and part of that has to be that the music somehow resonates with what and where I am at that moment.
Did a little drinking yesterday because it was my friend Trisha's birthday. Actually, we have been celebrating it since Saturday, when we had drinks with friends at our usual bar and then went to her house for a slumber party. That was fun. Mostly, we drank frozen Mango Mojitos and wandered around the garden looking for her rogue cat, Beryl.
Last night, we had drinks...
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franie:
Sounded like a hell of a good time. Hot shirt!
hadjischlomo:
Damn, you are so pretty. Glad you are having fun.
My name (IRL) means poisonous berry full of grace, which sounds like it ought to be a hail mary of sorts...
Poisonous Berry,
Full of Grace,
The whiskey is with thee.
Blessed art thou among vixens,
and blessed are the words
of thy lips.
Bitter Berry,
Mother of Dog,
pray for us lovers now,
and at the hour of happy.
Lately I think I have...
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Poisonous Berry,
Full of Grace,
The whiskey is with thee.
Blessed art thou among vixens,
and blessed are the words
of thy lips.
Bitter Berry,
Mother of Dog,
pray for us lovers now,
and at the hour of happy.
Lately I think I have...
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healthyparanoid:
*sigh*
*gasp*
*sigh*
[there needs to be a drool smiley here]
*gasp*
*sigh*
[there needs to be a drool smiley here]
venenumliscens:
Your new pics look good in the new pic you posted
How can it feel so nice?
Why does it feel so right?
I think ive been somewhere special
I want to go back there
Sleep
I think i will
Go back to sleep
Oh it's so cold and shivery outside my cocoon
Now i'm on my way
Sleep
Oh sleep
Sleep
Where have all my friends gone? How come all I do anymore is work...
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Why does it feel so right?
I think ive been somewhere special
I want to go back there
Sleep
I think i will
Go back to sleep
Oh it's so cold and shivery outside my cocoon
Now i'm on my way
Sleep
Oh sleep
Sleep
Where have all my friends gone? How come all I do anymore is work...
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catdad:
I love sleep. Especially dreamy sleep.
Um, maybe you're becoming a recluse. The world doesn't love recluses.
Um, maybe you're becoming a recluse. The world doesn't love recluses.
oxy:
I hate to talk like this
I hate to act as if there's something wrong
But I can't say I have this dream at night almost every night
I've been dreaming it forever
It's easy to remember, it's always cold always day always here
Always say I'm alright I'll be okay
If I can keep myself awake (keep myself awake...)
I get up early and look around me
And can't help but wonder what you mean
But I'm sleeping I'm so deep in
So much more real to me closer than reality
It's always cold always day always here
Always say I'm alright I'll be okay
If I can keep myself awake (keep myself awake...)
I get up early I look around me
I'm buying coffee by the pound
But I'm sleeping so deep in it
I can't keep myself awake (keep myself awake...)
as for the love.....from me you can have the love...and hugs...and kisses....and more...whenever you want it
I hate to act as if there's something wrong
But I can't say I have this dream at night almost every night
I've been dreaming it forever
It's easy to remember, it's always cold always day always here
Always say I'm alright I'll be okay
If I can keep myself awake (keep myself awake...)
I get up early and look around me
And can't help but wonder what you mean
But I'm sleeping I'm so deep in
So much more real to me closer than reality
It's always cold always day always here
Always say I'm alright I'll be okay
If I can keep myself awake (keep myself awake...)
I get up early I look around me
I'm buying coffee by the pound
But I'm sleeping so deep in it
I can't keep myself awake (keep myself awake...)
as for the love.....from me you can have the love...and hugs...and kisses....and more...whenever you want it
Holy crap. It's so hot. I'd like to say that I had a productive day, but it was too hot to do anything. I feel like I am back in the desert only without the added luxury of dry heat.
I am about to have my second shower of the day and then I will continue to perfect my starfish impression under my overworked ceiling...
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I am about to have my second shower of the day and then I will continue to perfect my starfish impression under my overworked ceiling...
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nuadventure:
I'd be happy to hold you up to your ceiling fan. And then I would kind of twirl you around like pizza
dough when I make pizza. I can guarantee you we would get a nice air flow on all sides of you.
Sound like a plan?
dough when I make pizza. I can guarantee you we would get a nice air flow on all sides of you.
Sound like a plan?
mr_rick:
well it seems only a couple of my friends have noticed ive returned to world of SG. i kinda wish i hadnt though, this new format is quite bad. its not real condusive to meeting and making new friends since they removed the new member and birthday sections, which is how ive come to get to know most of you all on my list. so ive decide to just keep in better touch with my friends...so HELLO FRIENDS!!!! LOL
whose excited about the new PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN flick comiing out friday??? i cant wait, looks like another winner of movie. bought ultraviolet and the 2nd underworld flicks over the weekend, i highly recommend them if you dont already have them. painted and bordered(my first experience with border) my sons room over the weekend also. have to say it turned out very nice, i have pics if anyone wants to see.
well enough for now...just wanted to say hey im back....LOL
rick
whose excited about the new PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN flick comiing out friday??? i cant wait, looks like another winner of movie. bought ultraviolet and the 2nd underworld flicks over the weekend, i highly recommend them if you dont already have them. painted and bordered(my first experience with border) my sons room over the weekend also. have to say it turned out very nice, i have pics if anyone wants to see.
well enough for now...just wanted to say hey im back....LOL
rick
Literally just got home from the Portland Pride Festival (and parade). It has been a long, but lovely weekend. Yesterday was busy and stressful, but it ended nicely with pizza, chocolate chip cookies and the movie "American Tail." (Yes, the one with the little mouse, Fivel Mousekowitz)
Today it was all about gay pride. We had a fabulous rolling snuggle float, which was really just...
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Today it was all about gay pride. We had a fabulous rolling snuggle float, which was really just...
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climac:
the cock ring part made me laugh.... sounds like a fun time.
the corset pics are lovely
the corset pics are lovely
viva:
you dont look very bellicose.
Ok. So, Monday sucked in so many ways. My massage got cancelled and then I discovered that my bank account was overdrawn. My week had been particularly stressful and I had planned to have a "princess day" complete with a Lush bath bomb, massage and a make up appointment before I went to the awards. Somehow, everything got screwed up. I should have known the...
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oxy:
sorry you didnt have a good evening....if it helps....you looked stunning in your pic
<3
<3
oxy:
oh by the way.
Oooooh! Tomorrow I get a free 50 minute massage at work. I am so excited. I have never really had a professional massage before, so I am looking forward to turning into a noodle.
After they scrape me off the table, I have to dash home and change into something terribly low cut and sexy for the Drammy awards (kind of Portland's version of the...
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After they scrape me off the table, I have to dash home and change into something terribly low cut and sexy for the Drammy awards (kind of Portland's version of the...
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frinky:
Wait. Where do you work that you get massages? Is it a prize?
frinky
frinky
merritt:
Ooooh. Low-cut and sexy. Pictures?
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feneon:
Lol, That's every day in feneonland!
Still, I hope you cheer up because you're beautiful and your journal posts are fun to read.
Still, I hope you cheer up because you're beautiful and your journal posts are fun to read.
mr_rick:
ok...it seems i have joined another myspace page. this new layout sucks and its totally copied from myspace. its actually a little harder to manuver through than myspace. so i have decided that my time on SG is coming to a close. why pay for a suedo-myspace when i can get it for free from the source. i will be trying to contact each of my wonderful friends individually, so you can decide to continue our chats or to quietly let me go into the vast beyond. it has been fun here...but my time is done.
avast ye swabs!!!!
please contact me at my myspace page....http://www.myspace.com/blizzphoto
avast ye swabs!!!!
please contact me at my myspace page....http://www.myspace.com/blizzphoto