it's been 4ish months since i checked in with you all....
let me tell you, stability is hard to come by. once you think you've settled in and found a nice balance, something shakes it up again. I try to roll with the punches and accept that, perhaps, stability isn't possible in the truest sense. The universe will always throw things at you to try and knock you off balance, and the best thing you can do is put yourself in a position to handle it, whatever it is.
we moved to a new apartment in May. It's beautiful, spacious, it's in my favorite neighborhood, i'm close to work.... i have a GIANT CLOSET all to myself! seriously.... i never imagined i'd have a walk in closet, it's amazing.
work is taking up all of my life. got a small raise, and have been talking with my boss about a possible promotion coming... which is all great, but i'm exhausted. i dont get 2 days off in a row. i havent had the energy to work on my artwork, and i work 8-6 5 days a week, including weekends so i never really have time to play my music without disturbing anyone. I just wish i could afford to put more towards my creative outlets.
but i am excited for the next week, because it's going to be a fun one. I saw Baroness last night, and they put on a killer show. I mean, it was so good i was actually dancing after working all day, instead of my usual head banging and feet tapping haha. I am going to see SUMAC on saturday night, which i am SOOO excited for, and i have monday-wednesday off for our 9 year anniversary. I am looking forward to having time to do things and also to relax and not do anything... and also have some much needed fun.
so even though some things suck, and i could sit here and be all stressed, i'm just trying to trust in myself that i can handle whatever happens, because i always do. It's exhausting, when you sit and think of everything you have to worry about, but i am trying hard to get outside my head and live, and just know that i will handle whatever needs to be handled. I may not be doing as much creatively as i want, but i am doing some, and so i just need to keep at it.
Also, i have been totally obsessed with Pokemon Go. I really didn't expect to enjoy it nearly as much as i do. So if there are any other trainers around here, let me know!
<3 B
