So.... big changes coming my way. The other day I decided it was time to go ahead and try to get my mental life back together, so I scheduled an appointment with my old therapist and I'm gonna hang out with him next week to see about getting back on the meds. Several years ago I finally broke down and went to get some help. Turns out I have OCD and a pretty serious personality disorder. There are basically two people hanging out inside my head. One good, the other bad. I realize most people call bullshit when they hear stuff like this, but if you only knew me its pretty obvious that there is more than one person driving the car. When I first started going to the therapist, which is a loose way of saying "the guy who pretends to listen to my problems then prescribes medication", they gave me several written tests. A few days later the doctor called me asking all these weird questions. One of the tests was really long and frustrating, so much so that I got pissed and my personality flip-flopped right in the middle of it. He said it was like two different people had taken the test because I started answering similar questions differently. Anyway... so I'm crazy, which I can live with now. Not so much so a few years ago when I found all this out. Back then they put me on medication and said I had to quit drinking in order for it to work properly. That was asking too much at the time and it didn't go so well. But due to recent events I'm going to try to quit drinking and give it another shot. What do I have to loose? My sanity? ha ha ha.... I made a funny.
