Does there come a point where your body knows when you're doing something wrong, and makes you sick? I think that's what's happening to me right now. I hate airing my dirty laundry, but I need some advice..
I'm talking to an amazing man who's overseas right now, and we have been talking since the new year rang in. Well, I promised him that I wouldn't do anything with any other guy while he's gone, and when he comes home, we will more than likely become an "item." But, we technically aren't together. Anyways, I've slept with 2 different guys since the promise, and made out with a guy friend of mine.
Does this make me a bad person? I'm justifying it because we aren't together, but I broke a promise and I think it's eating at me from the inside out. I feel like crap every day, and don't want to do anything. This recent sex-capade happened just last night, alcohol involved, and we've been eyeing each other for awhile now.
I don't want to say what I did was right, but I don't want to say it was totally wrong. I want to tell him so bad, but I know that if I do, I will surely lose him. Maybe I should lose him because of the horrible person I've become, but yet again, I have no idea what to think.
Please help me out. Tears are starting to cloud my eyes, and I'm starting to fall apart...
I'm talking to an amazing man who's overseas right now, and we have been talking since the new year rang in. Well, I promised him that I wouldn't do anything with any other guy while he's gone, and when he comes home, we will more than likely become an "item." But, we technically aren't together. Anyways, I've slept with 2 different guys since the promise, and made out with a guy friend of mine.
Does this make me a bad person? I'm justifying it because we aren't together, but I broke a promise and I think it's eating at me from the inside out. I feel like crap every day, and don't want to do anything. This recent sex-capade happened just last night, alcohol involved, and we've been eyeing each other for awhile now.
I don't want to say what I did was right, but I don't want to say it was totally wrong. I want to tell him so bad, but I know that if I do, I will surely lose him. Maybe I should lose him because of the horrible person I've become, but yet again, I have no idea what to think.
Please help me out. Tears are starting to cloud my eyes, and I'm starting to fall apart...
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putneydope:
The best thing to do is to let him know. It will make you feel better and will clear the air....
b3autifulm3ss:
Honestly, I have no idea if I can wait on him. I told myself I could, and I did really well for about a month and a half, and now, I've met someone that I really like. Idk if it'll work, but ya know? I gotta try. It sucks cuz he's such an awesome guy, I just honestly don't know what to do. It's so confusing, and it's got my stomach in knots, and I hate it, but I think you guys are right. I should tell him and see how it goes. I have a feeling I'm going to lose him if I tell him.. I can just feel it. But, I might as well try.. Thanks tho.