awblaze

Today is a really crappy day. I realize how much I hate people. Not just certain people, everyone. Maybe I'll change this post tonight when I get off my shift, but that's how I feel right now. People suck! (present company excluded)

*After shift* I'm gonna have to stay with crappy day.
I just found out that a girl I know isn't gonna come visit me for my leave because she met someone. I knew her when I was still with my Ex-fiance. We never hooked up, but she is the closest I ever came to cheating... But I still didn't cheat. She moved to California before I broke up with my ex. I got a letter from her after she found out I was deployed. We started talking to eachother again. She said she wanted to see me when I went on leave. But now that isn't gonna happen. I guess it just wasn't meant to be. (The military has now cost me 2 girls that I really liked!)

My friends are now trying to hook me up with some girls they know. They are the blonde "valley girl" type... not my type. But it's been a year for me... So I'm kinda thinkin of dropping my whole "no one night stand" rule and just going for it. I already know they are up for it. But I know I'll be pissed at myself afterwards, and I'm pretty sure it will suck. I'm used to having a steady girlfriend. I like actually knowing the person I'm sleeping with(Yeah, I'm a weenie like that)... But, it HAS been a year....

Also, everybody here(Camp Phoenix) is acting like an ass. Normally I let it bounce off me. But I'm just not in the mood for it right now!