I had the most intense (slightly painful on my side) conversation with my boy Andrew today.
Just so you're all aware: Andrew is the Boy Who Got Away from highschool.....and he's still getting away. Because I dont have the balls to tell him how I feel.
Anyways, he brought up how pissed off he was at his current girlfriend, and asking me what I thought his course of action should be. Considering she's 17, an immature bitch, and baby-crazy? I told him to fucking run for it. Then he started talking about the fact that a mutual friend of ours from highschool is up his ass trying to let him know that she wants a piece of him, and he's not having it. Granted the girl is a real crazy piece of work and would be detrimental to whatever progress he's made in the past year, but I get this gut feeling that he'd be just as reluctant to acknowledge how I feel about him.
Anyway, as the conversation progressed we somehow got to how Im the worst person to ask for relationship advice. Then I told him about my prospective boy who I've been chatting up for a few weeks. And how hopelessly difficult it is for me to talk to a NERD. I keep bringing up things that are of mutual interest like movies or superheros I especially like and bother to pay attention to, and while Im sure that's gaining me some points, I feel like Im just digging myself into that 'cute girl friend' hole that I always end up in as opposed to really making him like me. Andrew just responded saying "Wow, I've never thought about how weird that must be for you...and you've never realy had a....good boyfriend have you?'
I just shrugged and said no, I guess not.
I dont know, I'm ready to tear my hair out. I'm so close to him. We're so comfortable with each other. I dont want to ruin that. But I see us being something so much more beautiful than what we already are. It's so difficult to express.
Just so you're all aware: Andrew is the Boy Who Got Away from highschool.....and he's still getting away. Because I dont have the balls to tell him how I feel.
Anyways, he brought up how pissed off he was at his current girlfriend, and asking me what I thought his course of action should be. Considering she's 17, an immature bitch, and baby-crazy? I told him to fucking run for it. Then he started talking about the fact that a mutual friend of ours from highschool is up his ass trying to let him know that she wants a piece of him, and he's not having it. Granted the girl is a real crazy piece of work and would be detrimental to whatever progress he's made in the past year, but I get this gut feeling that he'd be just as reluctant to acknowledge how I feel about him.
Anyway, as the conversation progressed we somehow got to how Im the worst person to ask for relationship advice. Then I told him about my prospective boy who I've been chatting up for a few weeks. And how hopelessly difficult it is for me to talk to a NERD. I keep bringing up things that are of mutual interest like movies or superheros I especially like and bother to pay attention to, and while Im sure that's gaining me some points, I feel like Im just digging myself into that 'cute girl friend' hole that I always end up in as opposed to really making him like me. Andrew just responded saying "Wow, I've never thought about how weird that must be for you...and you've never realy had a....good boyfriend have you?'
I just shrugged and said no, I guess not.
I dont know, I'm ready to tear my hair out. I'm so close to him. We're so comfortable with each other. I dont want to ruin that. But I see us being something so much more beautiful than what we already are. It's so difficult to express.