I read somewhere in some report that people totally change their personality every 5 years. Frightening concept huh? I try to think back on the last decade of my life and test the theory, and i cant really say how true it is.. or maybe im just blocking out memories Its weird how many people seem to go through their whole lives with an attitude like: "I'm right no matter what." or "I don't care what other people think."
Maybe people need to think more about what they are doing wrong, more so than what they think they are doing right. Nobody is perfect. People screw up.. people screw up ALOT. Acknowledging your faults and attempting to deal with them is probably the greatest thing a person can do in their lifetime. I knew a person who went their whole life holding a grudge against another person, only to apologize on their deathbed. I don't want be like that.. to be so bullheaded or lost in my own self, that i can't step back and consider if how im living fucks up those around me. Some times i fear that I have become that person.
Its hard to control who you are sometimes. People are impulsive, weird little creatures. Sometimes looking at yourself in the mirror can be the scariest and hardest thing to do, but is often a excellent exercise when you have a problem with others. AS the saying goes: 'What you hate in others is what you hate in yourself'.
all i can hope is that in 5 years i'll be one of the good guys.
I really liked your journal entry, and welcome!