ashen_crib

well it's 24 short hours to D-day!!!!!!

emotions are high and the air is charged with love and change. my apartment is empty. obviously by this post my computer won't be taken down and packed until the last second. hehe.

my baby is struggling through her last day of work before he wonderful weeklong vacation with her favorite person.......ME!

yay. i love being loved and...
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ok. so the salvation army is swinging on by thursday to pick up my couch, my microwave, some boots, and other donatables. yay! things getting done even when i have a hangover. ooof.

but. pot + beer + flashy diva queens letting me cop a feel.. = mucho fun all night. weeeee!

it's so funny how some women change around you when they find out...
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first things first:

NEWS BITS//

1.)read ellegirl on the bus from 51st AVE to 7th ST

2.)i love and am loved

3.)cage is coming to my going away pancake massacre!

4.)"busty cops" is 33.8% downloaded

5.)jess and co. are coming to relieve me of my superflous material possessions.

HOKAY...
**puff puff**
so it's 13 days till california claims my flesh and tucks it neatly into...
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well have another box done plus my cd collection and tapes and such. i think i'm going to get going on my video collection. i need to get smaller boxes tomorrow from BASHAS or something. hmmmm.

rasputina is good moving music. yummm. my baby is busy relaxing with her friend and i think after i work a bit more i'll get to relaxing myself.

feels...
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one box is mostly full...hoping that i'm packing not too heavy for my girlfriend. or myself for that matter. remember...three flights of stairs. taking a quick lunch break with pizza hut goodness.

hanging out with beth at 6pm. we are going to the coffee plantation. hope that goes well.

i'll update more on the packing. WEEE!

preface to a scene:/:

an anonymous girls bathroom is dimly lit by a dying sun that shamefully slinks in through high, vertical windows. in between the heavily scrawled walls of the last stall two schoolgirls are busy scraping pleasure out of a worthless day. manicured fingers adding more chicken-scratches to the cool and unfeeling plastic cell they fumble around in. the violence is desperate and...
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tonight i bade my mother land goodbye. a lonesome soliloquy of praise and parting. walking around the mall, the spirits of greek legends taking my heart to heroic monologues i paced and confessed epic tales of love and adventure.

i love you. in your arms i become warrior and poet simultaneously. the lion that rapes you with red marks of desire. i forever wish to...
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it's good being daddy.

so i'm not seeing my baby till memorial day weekend!! ACK!! i'll make it i'll make it.

lately i've been having crazy ideas. nicole is such an eclectic muse. marketing ideas, music, poetry, businesses, books, etc etc etc. i want to change the world. wow. i'm so crazy!!! thank you for making me lose my mind hun.

one idea that i...
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so i'm headed back out to see my baby next friday. W00T! it's so amazingly beautiful out in the bay area (i'm so in love) and she is the perfect person to do EVERYTHING (or everyone) with. ehehehe.

i used to have qualms about spending money for travel but no longer. that weekend proved and disproved so many things for me that i am a...
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meihr

3 more days till i see my beautiful mommie. awwww. she is going to take me to task and teach me how pain can be turned into pleasure. such patience! i hope all of our dreams cum true this weekend. wow. san jose. here i am. do with me as you would.