I woke up this morning with a migraine.
It's a rather painful trial to compose a somewhat coherent, detailed e-mail explaining how to cover my lame ass at work on auction day, with a splitting headache that not only make coherent thought rough, but it also ultra sensitive to light and sound. The headache is still lingering - but more annoying than debilitating.
My brain has been suffering the last little while with doubts about the directions my life is taking as well. I love my job, honestly - but I dislike most everything else (not everything, just most everything). I brought too much baggage with me when I moved, and left behind too many of the things that are important.
Had I been smart (SMRT), I would have sold all my earthly possesions, bought a laptop, and headed west with only my computer and my clothing. Instead, I brought along a relationship that is draining (*note* this is more my doing than anything... I'm, unfortunately, the one that makes it complicated and unhealthy.), belongings and things that have memories attached to them, but no real use, and all the hangups that I wanted to leave behind.
I'm a shy guy, with very little in the way of meeting new people skills... not that it's really stopped me, but it makes things difficult. Probably the main reason I waited until my g/f was willing to move west with me before I did - because I'm too insecure to deal with starting from scratch alone. This way, it's just like home - sitting here night after night watching the same TV shows, bantering back and forth about the same things (when we talk at all - again, I fall a little short in the conversational attribute), and suffering the same frustrations.
It is nice, however, to have this boring same old life in the midst of some genuinely stunning scenery - nestled in the rocky mountains besode the pacific ocean.
Not sure, but I think I may brave the rigours of homeland security again tomorrow to venture to Bellingham for some exploration. I've heard Godfather's Pizza is very good
It's a rather painful trial to compose a somewhat coherent, detailed e-mail explaining how to cover my lame ass at work on auction day, with a splitting headache that not only make coherent thought rough, but it also ultra sensitive to light and sound. The headache is still lingering - but more annoying than debilitating.
My brain has been suffering the last little while with doubts about the directions my life is taking as well. I love my job, honestly - but I dislike most everything else (not everything, just most everything). I brought too much baggage with me when I moved, and left behind too many of the things that are important.
Had I been smart (SMRT), I would have sold all my earthly possesions, bought a laptop, and headed west with only my computer and my clothing. Instead, I brought along a relationship that is draining (*note* this is more my doing than anything... I'm, unfortunately, the one that makes it complicated and unhealthy.), belongings and things that have memories attached to them, but no real use, and all the hangups that I wanted to leave behind.
I'm a shy guy, with very little in the way of meeting new people skills... not that it's really stopped me, but it makes things difficult. Probably the main reason I waited until my g/f was willing to move west with me before I did - because I'm too insecure to deal with starting from scratch alone. This way, it's just like home - sitting here night after night watching the same TV shows, bantering back and forth about the same things (when we talk at all - again, I fall a little short in the conversational attribute), and suffering the same frustrations.
It is nice, however, to have this boring same old life in the midst of some genuinely stunning scenery - nestled in the rocky mountains besode the pacific ocean.
Not sure, but I think I may brave the rigours of homeland security again tomorrow to venture to Bellingham for some exploration. I've heard Godfather's Pizza is very good
I miss you much and am in need of one of your ever so awesome hugs.
If you don't come to see me, this is my plan...
I am going to work my ass off for the next few months, and what with us moving to a cheaper place, albeit with more people and the same amount of rooms. Its gonna be hell for awhile, but I will just keep reminding myself that it is all going towards a good cause.
That cause is me taking a couple weeks off in the spring or summer and driving out to come visit and maybe just maybe taking some time to head out to the island and learning how to surf
I hope your head feels better, soon. It is now officially migraine season here now, so I know how you feel.