Life it always changes
you'd think getting terrible news would be a downer, and it usually is - but sometimes, it's just knowledge, and a challenge.
I have this terrible tendency to blow up my life completely every 3-5 years... change what I do for a living, who I live with, everything. It's not a stable kind of life. It's a good life, don't get me wrong, but it lacks any real sense of stability.
AND then I got some bad news. I have a disease.
But it's not all bad honestly!
Yes, I have something I have to watch for, be careful of, and deal with. But it explains a lot of the things that lead to those "blow up" situations, and as far as I'm concerned, that part of my life is over.
I know what causes it, and I know how to control myself through the situations that left me in shambles every few years - and will probably continue to do so... but knowing what it is?
I know it's me now. I know I can move beyond those feelings, and those times, and continue moving forward with the things I've built in between those times - I can realize, and react as I would if I didn't feel that way, because I know before coming out the other side, I still feel that way, I just have muddled mental miscarriages, and that they don't represent who I am. I know, without a doubt, who I am, what I stand for, and how to be the best version of me, even in situations where it doesn't feel that way.
just for fun, here's a new picture of my dog.
you'd think getting terrible news would be a downer, and it usually is - but sometimes, it's just knowledge, and a challenge.
I have this terrible tendency to blow up my life completely every 3-5 years... change what I do for a living, who I live with, everything. It's not a stable kind of life. It's a good life, don't get me wrong, but it lacks any real sense of stability.
AND then I got some bad news. I have a disease.
But it's not all bad honestly!
Yes, I have something I have to watch for, be careful of, and deal with. But it explains a lot of the things that lead to those "blow up" situations, and as far as I'm concerned, that part of my life is over.
I know what causes it, and I know how to control myself through the situations that left me in shambles every few years - and will probably continue to do so... but knowing what it is?
I know it's me now. I know I can move beyond those feelings, and those times, and continue moving forward with the things I've built in between those times - I can realize, and react as I would if I didn't feel that way, because I know before coming out the other side, I still feel that way, I just have muddled mental miscarriages, and that they don't represent who I am. I know, without a doubt, who I am, what I stand for, and how to be the best version of me, even in situations where it doesn't feel that way.
just for fun, here's a new picture of my dog.
PS. Your dog is adorable!
thank you so much!