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hola SGeekas... been a bit since I bothered to put any words down... who's a flighty fuck?... that would be me...
huge pile 'o thanks to alansmithee55 for the new & improved profile pic... he's an old friend & new member, so give him a howdy do...
so, we're a couple of weeks into the new semester & the extra classes I took on are going well... the kidz seem to get along well with me & it's certainly not hurting the job security vibe for me to take on more responsibility... it's gonna be alot of extra work over the next few months, but I feel like I got my friends backin' me up...
the only drag is that more work means less time with the girl... But wait... there's more!... see, I'm lookin' forward to Sping break this year...
kay, here's the dealyo.... back when I was in school myself, had a beautiful passion filled fling with a girl that got deeper into my heart & spirit than anyone I'd ever met... my friends, this thing spanned lifetimes... it felt like we had known each other for centuries... well, as it will, the world continues to turn whether we want it to or not... we both left school and she went back north towards home while I stayed in the land of LA LA... we saw each other a few times after that, but the distance was alot to overcome... our lives spun into their own directions and we lost touch...
flash forward 13 years(2003)... I'm living alone in the city... it's been over 9 years since the last time I was involved with anyone (I had decided that I needed to take some time to make my heart a more truthful thing)...I'm doing some spring cleaning & in a box of old photos and letters I come across a note from her written all those years ago... in it is her parent's phone number... I dial, expecting nothing... maybe a disconnected number, maybe it's someone else's number now... at best, it'll be her parents & they aren't gonna give out any info to some long lost boythang... well, the universe being the joker that it will be.... she is the one who answers the phone... turns out she just happens to be visiting her folks that day.... we talk for a few hours... then a few days... then a few nights... and we begin to realize that, while the last decade may have moved our lives in different directions, it has not changed our hearts, our minds, or our desires....
she is married now... three beautiful children... and a completely settled life in western Washington... this both is and is not her... she loves her children... she helps sell Girl Scout cookies... goes to PTA meetings... changes diapers... yet there is the part of her that has been forced to slumber... the girl who dressed in black leather and drove a hearse... the girl who lit her room with candles that would later drip their painful pleasure onto our skin... the girl who wanted me to chase her through the forest only so I could catch her... that girl... that woman awoke... her passion more vital than ever...
over the next few months of late night phone calls we rediscovered our desire... our love for each other...
now, before you start shaking your collective head at me dear friends, I want to tell you something... we were (are) at all times, very aware of the reality of our present lives.... we know that we are thousands of miles away from each other...I have no desire to undermine the family she has created... she has no intention of jepordizing the safety and security of her children... she tells me that she loves her husband & I believe that... yet, there is a part of her that he has denied... a part of her that has been buried deep...
flash forward about a year... I have entered into a beautiful relationship with a girl/woman here in LA... we are dear friends and dear lovers... we had known each other for about three years before we ever became intimate... she knew all about this telephonic affair I was having with my long lost lover... she also knew that this would not change her own place in my heart...
one night, while the new girl is wrapped around me in my bed, the far away girl calls... I decide that they should meet each other... they talk for the next hour, getting along like a couple of giggling school girls... soon enough the far away girl is calling when she knows the near girl will be with me... soon enough, we are all playing with each other on the phone... the girl that slumbered is fully awake... as is her desire...
so now we come to the now... Spring break is just around the corner... the week after my birthday, as a matter of fact... and the two beautiful women in my life conspire to offer me a gift... the far away girl wants to come to LA LA land for a visit... this is frightening and wonderful to me at the same time...

ok... I know I've been rambling on for a bit here... I just wanted to get the opinion of a few of my friends out here in SGville... am I a fool?... am I fortunate?... am I a fortunate fool?...
whadya think kidz?

love, lollies & lipstick
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