artinsomnia

so im late on the journal tip.


news: i got into cca/california college of the arts. i shall be moving to oakland in the fall. im pretty fucking scared about going away. pretty fucking goosed about having to make ends meet and being poor all over again. having no car again(they make you sign a contract where as a student, you cannot own or drive a car while up north....fuckme!)








life is a kick in the nuts. or rather its like jumpinginto a shallow lake when you are 5. you know that nothing will happen once you hit the water, but your mind plays so many tricks on you that the expereinces becomes a giant warped and possibly tramatic expereince. all the while as you stand barefoot on the dock your father is behind your urging you to jump. you must jump. but you dont want to. and what happened when you jump?


cold water. thats all, but you learned something about yourself. your survived to jump again another day.