armsxlikexblades

I penetrate you
ruin you
Between your shaking thighs and senseless words
this is the only way I know how
to find what Im missing

but it has left me emptier than when I began
like any other fix would

I look for something in you after the fact
To find who you are crushed by the sheer weight of what you have to live up to
Shes a tough act to follow
as are my expectations

like it matters.
"I don't want to know you"
"I don't want to know you either."
And we're off...
at least we're fucking honest

Id give almost anything to not be here right now
Listening to you
Holding you gently
Fucking you dutifully
Simply to validate myself

Like some castaway sailor
adrift for days
Drinking saltwater

and how you drone on...

about my crazy endurance
Like Im some fucking race horse
Place your bets

I can part your thighs and dig deeply just like a million other guys could have
and would have
I can kiss the same points
And touch the same places
And push all the right buttons that any sixth grader knows or can learn about reading trash mags
none of that makes me special

I could give a shit if Im the best fucking head youve ever had
Or if I fuck like no one youve ever known
We are one anothers fucking methadone clinic
Dont you ever forget that

Because Id give every wasted spasm of your orgasm
Every single inch of my manhood
Literally everything I know about your body
And how to make it scream
To simply be able to make love for a single second
With someone who sees the rest of me
Someone who gives a fuck
and won't walk away

I'd take sexual dysfunction any day of the week
To live without the dysfuntion that makes me push the best things in my life away

And this isnt the way a guy is supposed to think?
Well FUCK that
I guess I was never destined to be much of a man
When THIS is all I know how to do
and THIS
is all I have to give
that is'nt thown back into my face

and none of it means a fucking thing