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aphoenixryzes

St. Louis, MO

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Here I AM!

May 16, 2024
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Hello!

I am sorry it has taken me a bit to finally get on here to do a proper introduction and to tell you a little about why I decided to become a Suicide Girl, but, HERE I AM!

So I have a dear friend (also a Suicide Girl) who introduced me to this world. I am 44 years old and never, up until a few months ago, had thought that I could ever do modeling. I could go into the sob story of my youth, but we all pretty much have those. I will highlight a few points by telling you that I was overweight my whole childhood, I had frizzy hair, and bad teeth. I was bullied at home and at school which is a big reason why "Phoenix" resonates with me as I have overcome many challenges to get to where I am today. I am a transformational bad ass really!

My friend who is a Suicide Girl happened to see something within me that I didn't. She encouraged me to give it a go... so here I am, a few months later as a "hopeful." I have met some incredible people within my local SG group that include other models and photographers. I have healed a lot of things within me already by just being bold enough to step in front of the camera and put myself out there for the world to see. I am excited for what the future will bring with all of this, even if that is just me embodying all aspects of who I truly am.

Also, I am pretty much an open book, and I am very open about my life. Which brings me to another reason why Suicide Girls is important to me. I am all about open sexual expression. Now, I wasn't raised this way (just ask most "good mid-westerners"), and I found that most of my life I had been stuffed into a box trying to conform to some "standard" that doesn't even really exist. So at the same time I decided to enter this world of Suicide Girls and modeling, I told my husband of 8 1/2 years that I wanted to really live in the world as my full authentic self, which includes being bi-sexual. Sooooo we entered the LS scene and it has really opened us up to a whole new world that we are exploring (I am sure I will have more to say on this at a later time.)

I truly want to thank anyone who has supported me up until this point and anyone who decides to support me moving forward. I look forward to connecting more with the SG community and hearing more from anyone who reads what I have to share. :)

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fimbis:
Welcome to the wonderment!
May 31, 2024
robertbluesman:
Greetings from Delaware 😎
Sep 25, 2024

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